Discussion CTB tonight

[Ryan.s]

Well, it's morning for you that are in America. I got in a fight with my wife and I'm just sick of this shit. Sick of life and general and I'm sick of myself. I'm going to catch the bus tonight with the same setup I always have had. Partial suspension hanging. Last time I was seconds from passing out and my dumbass got up at the last second. I'm taking benzos tonight (Klonopin) to fight the survival instinct. Fuck life. I can't stand this sadness anymore. Thank you guys for being here for me and especially to those who took the time to PM me (you guys know who you are ;). My wife's not here with me so for you guys just to be here to hold my hand while I die would be so greatly appreciated. I will show you guys my setup tonight. It's 8 pm at night here in Thailand and I'm going at 12.

All I wanted was a happy life :( We all want that, but never get it.

 

[randomz]

I am sorry life brought you to this place. I beg you to think over your decision again though as it is such an important one. Are you sure you exhausted all other options there are for you to be happy? we are here if you want to talk. You can always PM me.

 

[error_ratio]

Peace and love, Ryan. I'm sorry to hear of your struggles.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Hey brother, I'm so sorry for the situation you're in. It sounds like you've really had enough of things. I'm sorry i don't know you more friend, as it sounds like you've been in the darkness for a long time.
I honestly and sincerely wish you peace. I realise that you may have discussed this ad nauseum with various people but if you want to vent your spleen one more I will listen. If tonight's not you're night that is okay too brother, especially if you have that awful combo of deep rooted emotional pain and raw anger bearing down on you.
I wish there was some way yo take away your pain friend and I sincerely hope a light shines on you.
Peace brother

 

[devil]

Hey, how are you now? What's going on

 

[Ryan.s]

Hey, how are you now? What's going on

I'm about to get everything set up. This is where the fun comes in. Brings joy to my heart :)

Hey brother, I'm so sorry for the situation you're in. It sounds like you've really had enough of things. I'm sorry i don't know you more friend, as it sounds like you've been in the darkness for a long time.
I honestly and sincerely wish you peace. I realise that you may have discussed this ad nauseum with various people but if you want to vent your spleen one more I will listen. If tonight's not you're night that is okay too brother, especially if you have that awful combo of deep rooted emotional pain and raw anger bearing down on you.
I wish there was some way yo take away your pain friend and I sincerely hope a light shines on you.
Peace brother

Thank you so much brother. I appreciate your kind words. I'll keep you posted on what happens tonight.

 

[Loner]

I am so sorry that you are struggling like this... I wish you peace. Sending you lots of love

 

[jonionl]

I'm so sorry you feel this way, Ryan. I hope you are able to find peace eventually. You said you had a fight with your wife - I don't know how bad it was, but remember you can always talk to her and fix it. You don't have to do this right now if it's because you feel guilty for what happened. She will always forgive you, and you can try to forgive her too. But it is your choice, and if you do it I hope it isn't very painful.

 

[devil]

I'm about to get everything set up. This is where the fun comes in. Brings joy to my heart :)

what time is it there?

 

[Ryan.s]

what time is it there?

12 hour difference from you if you are in America. So 11 o'clock at night. Gonna get everything set up and take the benzos in 30 about minutes.

 

[devil]

12 hour difference from you if you are in America. So 11 o'clock at night. Gonna get everything set up and take the benzos in 30 about minutes.

if you need someone to talk to before then or just want to talk about anything, I'm here.

 

[Grandexit]

Hey. I'm sorry you're at this point. Is it just over a fight with your spouse? Is there anything we can do for you?

 

[Ryan.s]

Hey. I'm sorry you're at this point. Is it just over a fight with your spouse? Is there anything we can do for you?

I'm just a sensitive guy. I love my wife too much for this shit. Yes, it is a fight. I'm just want to die. Not sure if I will succeed tonight but I'm going to try my best. Hope I don't come back in the morning like an idiot.

 

[Grandexit]

Fights can be gotten over. Please

 

[Ryan.s]

Fights can be gotten over. Please

They can :) I'm just so depressed though.

 

[Underwhelming]

Sending love brother. We're here if you want to talk. May you find peace and happiness whatever your decision may be.

 

[Ryan.s]

Setting up now. Scared as hell.

 

[russian_roulette]

Try to stay calm, Ryan. I know exactly how you feel, you're very brave. Keep in mind why you want to end it. But no matter which way you go, it's okay! You can always come back. I wish you lots of strength and that you get the peace you deserve.

 

[Underwhelming]

Depression can be gotten over aswell, the same with fights.

 

[Ryan.s]

I hope this works

 

[Ulisses]

go in peace brother. in a few weeks I will be on the same plane as you.

 

[Lostnotfound]

May you find the strength to do what you must whether that be to stay with us and try to solve your issues or to CTB. Whatever it is you need I hope you find it.

 

[lostangel]

Hope it works out <3

 

[TeenIdle]

I'm sorry you came to this. If you are determined, have a nice trip and see you soon

 

[devil]

anyone heard from him?

 

[Ulisses]

anyone heard from him?

never heard of. only for your posts here on the forum

 

[jimbob1000]

i wish you peace bro

 

[Lutembëe]

Last seen 45 minutes ago, I hope you found the peace you were looking for.

 

[Jean4]

Thoughts are with you. Sending you love and I hope you are peace.

 

[toomuchgrief]

Hi my friend, glad to see you online green dot. Don't want you to die my friend.