I think tonight I'm going to attempt. I'm getting drunk to make it easier. Full suspension hanging. Wish me luck. Hopefully I have the courage to go through with it.
Lulzacruel
Specialist
- Jun 13, 2023
- 336
Wishing well regards to the void/afterlife you will find yourself in.
CTB is not a easy action to go through,
I hope you are safe and sound. May your death be painless.
CTB is not a easy action to go through,
I hope you are safe and sound. May your death be painless.
Thanks. From what I've read, full suspension is painful, but hopefully I lose consciousness quickly.
mouseteacup
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- Aug 1, 2023
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mochiie
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- Aug 25, 2023
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I hope your transition goes smoothly. Goodnight and best of luck to you.
wanttodie
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conejo triste
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CheekyPhobia
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true-ending
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CW36
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- Jul 23, 2023
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Wishing you the best of luck! I hope you find peace! Regardless of how tonight goes, you have support here.
Every good wish and kind thought accompany you, my unmet friend. Rest well and in peace.
All the best with your plan! May you find the strength you need. I hope you find peace, safe travels and good luck!
FuneralCry
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- Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you find the freedom you search for.
アホペンギン
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- Jul 10, 2023
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Full suspension hanging is very hard to pull off, it takes lots of courage to push the chair away. I hope you find the strength and courage you need, I send you my best regards and safe travels.
This is my exact plan. To be specific, it's full to a tree, and I will be drinking and taking beta blockers to combat si. I will be doing it early tomorrow morning.
Hopefully we meet on the other side.
Hopefully we meet on the other side.
caraphernelia
what’s so good about picking up the pieces
- Aug 24, 2023
- 31
I hope everything goes well and you have a peaceful transition <3
I ended up falling asleep last night before I got drunk enough so I'll be trying again tonight. I wish you luck with your plan as well. See you on the other side.
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- Jun 24, 2023
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I'm so sorry the world has brought you to this point OP and I hope you manage to find peace outside of this horrible world.
Best wishes for you.
Best wishes for you.
CW36
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- Jul 23, 2023
- 839
If you need to get blind drunk to achieve a CTB then clearly that's telling you something - a part of you still wishes to stay.Good luck
My plans keep getting sabotaged as well. Why is ctb so hard lol
Waterr
The messiest Trans-Fem
- Aug 21, 2023
- 41
I hope your full goes well, i heard its pretty reliable, hppefully you pass out fairly quickly too
May i ask Are Beta Blockers affective against combating SI? Im new here and havent heard of people using them before for that purpose, so im trying to figure my way around what kind of methods are applicable or not.
It's like a tug a war of two minds; a part of me that wants to live and a part of me that wants to die.
I just can't live. I am fucked. I wracked up credit debt, I am running out of money, I threw away important stuff, factory set my laptop, shut off my electric bill, forgot to delete a suicide letter to a friend on a day I held off and idk if he can forgive me for worrying him sick, I'm unemployed with no income and can't recover from this nervous break down like my hands are pretty much tied.
Idk how ppl do partial I have practiced and I just can't do it. With full there is no going back.I hope your full goes well, i heard its pretty reliable, hppefully you pass out fairly quickly too
May i ask Are Beta Blockers affective against combating SI? Im new here and havent heard of people using them before for that purpose, so im trying to figure my way around what kind of methods are applicable or not.
Idk if beta blockers will work. They slow your heart rate and stuff tho so I imagine they would.
AnonGermany
Student
- Jul 9, 2023
- 157
I dont Think so. SI is something deep inside us. Something in our brain and body that doesnt allow us to just jump on a train track, or stick a fork in the Power Outlet. It would hurt us. The SI screams and tries everything to avoid this.I hope your full goes well, i heard its pretty reliable, hppefully you pass out fairly quickly too
May i ask Are Beta Blockers affective against combating SI? Im new here and havent heard of people using them before for that purpose, so im trying to figure my way around what kind of methods are applicable or not.
Beta Blocker might lower your blood pressure / heartrate, which might let you feel a little less Stressed, but your Body will yell for help and try everything it can regardless of that.
Waterr
The messiest Trans-Fem
- Aug 21, 2023
- 41
I had a weird experience with si and drowning before, of course it didnt succeed nor was i intending on it succeeding at the time, but fighting past the point of struggle from the si fighting back is really peaceful. It doesnt really hurt much after the struggle nor does it feel like your drowning, catching my breath after was a pain but again, not as bad as i thought itd be, i really didnt know how i gained the will to be able to get to that point. And no water didnt enter my lungs i purposely done it in a bath and with my tongue to the roof of my mouth and my mouth closed, since i wasnt actually attempting, just curious.
It really made me learn alot about si itself but i hadnt realised it since it wasnt really my goal back then, i wonder if i could achieve the same result through other means. If your wondering why i even attempted doing this in the first place it was a silly reason, a streamer i watched back then (when i was more innocent and didnt have many problems in life) died from drowning and i kind of wanted to replicate what sort of feeling he went through since it made me distraught from hearing the news (i dont deal with death very well even to this day).
Sorry for my random rant anyway, you all habe a nice day
Dont let those thoughts come back to you during a full, it wouldnt be pleasant given theres no real going back from it without external help. I hope you understand 100% about whats going to happen, give yourself all the time you need for this your really brave considering it
i can see your situation isnt pleasant either, have you gone on a walk with your own thoughts at all? It might make you more ready for whats about to happen. We all love you on here, just making sure you really are ready and not going with regret 
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