BLUE1970

BLUE1970

Experienced
Nov 3, 2020
213
I literally just drank the SN. I'm so scared and alone but I guess this is what I wanted. I'll let you all know if I live
Hope you have a safe passage if that is what fate decides. Embrace the love and support here and focus on a positive ending, fight the fear. xxx
I just threw up everywhere. I wonder if I won't die now
If you wish to live, call out for help, drag yourself out of your home if necessary. If you wish to succeed, stay calm and drift with the moment.
 
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StuFin

StuFin

Arcanist
Oct 21, 2020
450
Hope you have a safe passage if that is what fate decides. Embrace the love and support here and focus on a positive ending, fight the fear. xxx

If you wish to live, call out for help, drag yourself out of your home if necessary. If you wish to succeed, stay calm and drift with the moment.
Last seen over an hour ago. I fear it may be too late if they didn't immediately call for help.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,017
My heart goes out to you 0P. It seems you were not completely ready, and acted out of impulse. It makes me so sad to think that life put you in a position that you felt you had to do something you weren't ready to do. I hope you are at peace now.
 
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mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

Visionary
Apr 2, 2020
2,404
I hope she's okay, one way or another.
 
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BLUE1970

BLUE1970

Experienced
Nov 3, 2020
213
Last seen over an hour ago. I fear it may be too late if they didn't immediately call for help.
I feel sad. Not often I feel emotion.
 
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flower

flower

on the moon
Feb 23, 2020
320
oh my goodness :(( i was hoping you were able to hold on until december, i guess things got unbearable. if you survived i hope that you are ok, if not then i hope you're at peace now :heart:
 
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peacechoice

peacechoice

Experienced
Oct 11, 2020
205
It took her about 7 minutes to vomit. Is that enough time to absorb it?
I'm wondering this too. Sn is such a gamble really. Sometimes I feel like I wouldn't be lucky when things like this happen.
 
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NA90

NA90

Can you hear the wolf cry in a moonlight night?
Nov 1, 2020
116
Guess I just witnessed my first CTB story :aw:
 
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BLUE1970

BLUE1970

Experienced
Nov 3, 2020
213
It is a natural reaction to expel toxins, if the OP vomited so soon after ingestion the chances are this is a failed attempt. I would be somewhat relieved as I cannot bear the thought of them passing with regret. This is a stark reminder to all that you must be 100% certain before taking this course of action.
 
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peacechoice

peacechoice

Experienced
Oct 11, 2020
205
It is a natural reaction to expel toxins, if the OP vomited so soon after ingestion the chances are this is a failed attempt. I would be somewhat relieved as I cannot bear the thought of them passing with regret. This is a stark reminder to all that you must be 100% certain before taking this course of action.
Yes, suicide should be a careful and deliberate action. It is for this reason that I am planning every step. I'm also willing to go as far as planning my funeral.
 
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StuFin

StuFin

Arcanist
Oct 21, 2020
450
I think 7 minutes is more than enough time. Some people vomit and then pass out within 5 minutes.

Moonicide is a good example of how fast it can take effect: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/first-ever-sn-documentation.29734/
 
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BLUE1970

BLUE1970

Experienced
Nov 3, 2020
213
Yes, suicide should be a careful and deliberate action. It is for this reason that I am planning every step. I'm also willing to go as far as planning my funeral.
I've done the same, detailed my funeral requirements to family right down to the music played. Cardboard box, cremation and a play list..I want it to be a celebration of my time here on earth and my achievements. A happy day. Family are on board thankfully.
 
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NA90

NA90

Can you hear the wolf cry in a moonlight night?
Nov 1, 2020
116
I think 7 minutes is more than enough time. Some people vomit and then pass out within 5 minutes.

Moonicide is a good example of how fast it can take effect: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/first-ever-sn-documentation.29734/
He could ve called for help. Seems he wasn't so sure about it after he took it. Let's send him good vibes and wish for the best whatever that may be.
 
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peacechoice

peacechoice

Experienced
Oct 11, 2020
205
I've done the same, detailed my funeral requirements to family right down to the music played. Cardboard box, cremation and a play list..I want it to be a celebration of my time here on earth and my achievements. A happy day. Family are on board thankfully.
That is awesome. I will do this as well. How old are you if you don't mind me asking?
 
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W3akCr3atur3

W3akCr3atur3

Empty and hollow
Aug 3, 2020
357
I wish you peace. :hug:

Hopefully see you on the other side soon
 
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yetme

yetme

Arcanist
Oct 20, 2019
486
Good bye! (( It's sad to see you go(
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,086
I feel scared and sad and idk if I made the right decision but it feels like the only choice I had. My heart is beating quickly. So quickly. I feel nauseous. I want to cry
I feel dizzy
i want to cry reading your indecision
 
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peacechoice

peacechoice

Experienced
Oct 11, 2020
205
I don't mind you asking at all, I'm 50. You?
Aww man you brave soul. You made it far. I am only 21 and life has already dealt me horribly shitty cards and health. I'll probably join the 27 club good way to go.
 
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BLUE1970

BLUE1970

Experienced
Nov 3, 2020
213
Aww man you brave soul. You made it far. I am only 21 and life has already dealt me horribly shitty cards and health. I'll probably join the 27 club good way to go.
I only reached this age due to offspring and setting goals...alas it is not enough. If you ever want to chat PM me xx
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
Praying you got the outcome you wanted, whether you wanted help or to pass
 
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grungeCat

grungeCat

Awkward & weird
Jul 5, 2020
1,110
I think he is no more among us. I wish you eternal peace and happiness. My heart goes out to you. I'll light a candle for you today.
 
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peacechoice

peacechoice

Experienced
Oct 11, 2020
205
I only reached this age due to offspring and setting goals...alas it is not enough. If you ever want to chat PM me xx
Thank you will do.
 
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Weary Soul

Weary Soul

Soon I will be free
Nov 13, 2019
1,156
I literally just drank the SN. I'm so scared and alone but I guess this is what I wanted. I'll let you all know if I live

Lights a candle and sits quietly beside you in spirit.

I am so very sorry life or circumstances led you to this decision.
 
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Disappointered

Disappointered

Enlightened
Sep 21, 2020
1,284
Wishing eternal peace.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
It is a natural reaction to expel toxins, if the OP vomited so soon after ingestion the chances are this is a failed attempt. I would be somewhat relieved as I cannot bear the thought of them passing with regret. This is a stark reminder to all that you must be 100% certain before taking this course of action.
Unfortunately I don't think even 100% certainty will prevent a panic in certain individuals, this is the risk with a method that is not instantaneous.
 
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OccydePoes

OccydePoes

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
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This little candle burns for you, may it's light guide you to love and peace
 
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Surgeon

Surgeon

anam cara
Mar 2, 2020
61
R.I.P
Sucks to see someone go out unsure and clearly emotionally distressed
Hope it's peaceful
 
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