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GongLiFang

GongLiFang

Certified Stupid
Aug 11, 2021
77
So, my last post was in prep for a 48 SN regime, but unfortunately I had to abort it because after the 5th dose of Meto (around 4pm on the second day) the side effects from the Meto were becoming too difficult to manage.
My fatigue from the first day was joined by weakness, restlessness, and shaky hands. Later when I was off the Meto schedule and trying to sleep it off I also was really hot and couldn't sleep because I was also nauseous (which I am still a bit now).
I am telling people this in case they are considering the 48 hour, the side effects from that drug can be a lot to manage. For me it was to a point I wasn't able to wrap up my final tasks or confidently measure out SN. So please keep that in mind if you plan on doing the 48 hour regime as it is possible (and I was glad I at least tested a dose or two so I know what the effects are for when I am taking the SN) but it can make the last hours more difficult than expected.

So with that in mind, I am switching to taking the stat dose tonight/early morning as most commonly seen on this site.
1) I am fasting for 9-10 hours before SN
2) I am dry fasting for 3 hours before SN
3) Due to my expected side effects from the Meto I am mixing the SN a bit earlier

The plan will look like as follows:
1:00 am - 600mg of Ibuprofen (within recommended dosage)
1:15 am - 30mg of Metoclopromide
1:20 am - Blood Test for SN
1:30 am - Double Dose of Milk of Magnesia
1:50 am - Mix SN (cover with lid afterward)
2:00 am - SN Drink (20gm of SN in 50ml of Water)

I intend to take a second dose if I throw up (which I am expecting considering my current physical state) because I am willing to give this a fair shot. If you haven't read any of my stuff before or haven't seen me in the chatroom, I have been attempting for years and I am really ready to go. Life circumstances are also presenting tonight as a necessary exit point for my life.

If you are wanting to see how it unfolds, I am planning on making a goodbye thread in my final hour and hanging out in the chat as well.
I wish the best for all of you out there and hope we can all find the peace we seek for our lives.
 
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dospi1

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Im very sorry it has come to this brother, godspeed, ill be here keeping you company
 
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Imissyoumydarling

Imissyoumydarling

a very majestic chicken cat
May 7, 2022
107
Thank you for the 48hr warning, I was looking at this method.

I hope all goes well and you have us for company ♥️
 
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Glowarm

F*ck everyone and everything
Apr 8, 2022
673
Sorry it has come to this, but I wish you peace in whatever you decide to do.
Also, I commend you on being very level headed. I don't sense any impulsiveness either.
I wish the best for you.
 
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natali4

natali4

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May 24, 2021
147
I'm sorry! I wish it hadn't come to this but I hope you find peace.
 
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braindead911

braindead911

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May 14, 2022
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@GongLiFang I'm so sorry to hear you're leaving but I'm sure you have had plenty of time to consider it. I hope every thing goes smoothly.
 
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msci4499

Member
Apr 25, 2022
38
If I die, I want to sleep in the cold and quiet galaxy and never wake up
This is something I always think about

I don't know what the world you want
But I hope you can find eternal peace
whatever the outcome

sorry English is not my native language
But I absolutely sincerely bless you
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DOOMED
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Really sorry to see you go @GongLiFang I want to wish you a very pleasant and comfortable journey and may you have everlasting peace you so richly deserve :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart::hug::heart::hug:
 
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WanderingWater

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Apr 7, 2022
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Peace Be with You
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
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I'm so sad that your suffering has brought you to here. I hope you can find peace.
 
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All these moments will be lost in time
May 1, 2022
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I hope you have a peaceful journey
 
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WanderingWater

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How are you doing??
 
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GongLiFang

GongLiFang

Certified Stupid
Aug 11, 2021
77
UPDATE

I have taken the painkillers and the Meto as well on schedule. I feel normal, no side effects yet but it might happen later
How are you doing??
I am currently doing alright :) I am listening to some music right now and just accepting my last hours
 
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msci4499

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Apr 25, 2022
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UPDATE

I have taken the painkillers and the Meto as well on schedule. I feel normal, no side effects yet but it might happen later

I am currently doing alright :) I am listening to some music right now and just accepting my last hours
What kind of music
can you share ^_^
 
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Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
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Sorry it came to this. Wish you well in whatever happens!
 
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GongLiFang

GongLiFang

Certified Stupid
Aug 11, 2021
77
What kind of music
can you share ^_^
Here is part of my playlist:
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UPDATE

Took Milk of Magnesia, I am not experiencing meto side effects so I will wait properly to mix the SN (I am making two doses in case I throw up) and will test the SN then as well
 
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braindead911

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Here is part of my playlist:
View attachment 92496
UPDATE

Took Milk of Magnesia, I am not experiencing meto side effects so I will wait properly to mix the SN (I am making two doses in case I throw up) and will test the SN then as well
You will be missed!
 
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lostmylove

lostmylove

Specialist
Apr 1, 2022
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Sorry we didn't get to talk more. You always seemed extremely rational and you've planned this out seriously and professionally.

It's a dam shame you've been backed into a corner because of circumstances and this is the last resort.

I hope you find peace in your decision.
 
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dredd1981

dredd1981

All these moments will be lost in time
May 1, 2022
102
I don't know about you, but my final play list will definitely contain this gem

 
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natali4

natali4

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May 24, 2021
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Are you still with us?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever you decide to do. I'm sorry for all the pain that has brought you to this point, it is sad how much we suffer in life. I wish you peace.
 
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natali4

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May 24, 2021
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I hope you rest in peace @GongLiFang . You will be missed 😞
 
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mrselfdestruct

mrselfdestruct

And there’s someone in my head, but it’s not me.
May 10, 2022
22
Rest in paradise, godspeed. ❤️
 
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Griffin780

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OP mentions strong side effects with Metoclopromide. Which is my main concern as well. What is a good alternative that has a low side effect profile?
 
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