angel_cries
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- Aug 14, 2023
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1. SN is my first option. I would like do CTB in my bed listening to music while I say my goodbyes to all the people I left back in my homecountry. But I don't have any SN source and don't know how to get it here. (I have seen some online chem selling lab grade SN but I think a license or use proof is needed, don't know if they check on people who buy too.)
If SN is not possible soon I might get my last paycheck in the next 10 days and go on a runaway vacation and then CTB there after a week or less. But I really think this will lower significantly my chance of success of my hail mary attempt.
2. Japan is famous for CO cases and this will be my plan B, but it would be really risky to do it on my, kinda big, bedroom. The chances of some neighbor snitching or someone rescuing me is quite high, and I don't think I have the time to prepare my bedroom or the bathroom. My house have a really small toilet room tho (about 2m3) that could be easily prepared. I think hotel rooms will have smoke detectors even at the toilet so it might be out of the question to CTB with CO in a hotel room. I have a question, though, any BBQ charcoal would do it? I wouldn't have to be mineral coal?
3. If I can't get SN and CO is not possible I think I'll have to resort to partial suspension (or full) but I really don't want to be found hanged if I need to do it home. That's why I got the idea to run away, and in my house there isn't a place high enough to do full nor an anchor point strong enough that would support the weight of partial. My only reservation with this is that I wouldn't say my final goodbyes and that's important for me. Hanging requires a resolve that I don't think I have in me and will be way worse if I get to see their responses if I dare to say anything.
If anyone can help me with any of these methods (especially getting SN) or suggest one that would be easier and I didn't think about, I will be beyond grateful.
Be safe and take care.
PS: Qualquer pessoa que quiser comentar em português ou espanhol sinta-se à vontade.
If SN is not possible soon I might get my last paycheck in the next 10 days and go on a runaway vacation and then CTB there after a week or less. But I really think this will lower significantly my chance of success of my hail mary attempt.
2. Japan is famous for CO cases and this will be my plan B, but it would be really risky to do it on my, kinda big, bedroom. The chances of some neighbor snitching or someone rescuing me is quite high, and I don't think I have the time to prepare my bedroom or the bathroom. My house have a really small toilet room tho (about 2m3) that could be easily prepared. I think hotel rooms will have smoke detectors even at the toilet so it might be out of the question to CTB with CO in a hotel room. I have a question, though, any BBQ charcoal would do it? I wouldn't have to be mineral coal?
3. If I can't get SN and CO is not possible I think I'll have to resort to partial suspension (or full) but I really don't want to be found hanged if I need to do it home. That's why I got the idea to run away, and in my house there isn't a place high enough to do full nor an anchor point strong enough that would support the weight of partial. My only reservation with this is that I wouldn't say my final goodbyes and that's important for me. Hanging requires a resolve that I don't think I have in me and will be way worse if I get to see their responses if I dare to say anything.
If anyone can help me with any of these methods (especially getting SN) or suggest one that would be easier and I didn't think about, I will be beyond grateful.
Be safe and take care.
PS: Qualquer pessoa que quiser comentar em português ou espanhol sinta-se à vontade.
