Lo$t95

Lo$t95

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I have 13 Blue Punisher ecstasy pills. Recently I have been a little uncomfortable with the idea of FS hanging. Sorry for sounding like a pussy but I am scared of fucking it up in the middle of nowhere and suffering for hours/days - my CTB date is tomorrow. Not sure the exact strength but they are strong enough to completely escape reality on nights out. I would like to die in a state of ecstasy not wake up braindead. Combining this with cocaine will help me die or not ? Does anyone know more. I have seen ODs on nights out it's not pretty but they are not taking near this much. When I feel weak I could put a bag over my head and tie it to my neck. Feedback would be appreciated sorry for the cold feet bullshit - I am not a strong person.
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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My honest opinion: I would enjoy the drugs instead of trying to OD on ecstasy (MDMA if they really contain it and not other stuff). Imo it's pretty unreliable.
 
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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

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My honest opinion: I would enjoy the drugs instead of trying to OD on ecstasy (MDMA if they really contain it and not other stuff). Imo it's pretty unreliable.
This is the problem its not 100%. Seen people die from ODs when they were not even trying to. I envy them so much it's unreal. Wish they could take my years ill swap for their death.

Combining methods is always a possibility. Thanks for the input I will look into it. Either I die tomorrow or suffer for a few hours it is. Either way not playing this game anymore. 30 November I am signing out. Fucking done with this shit.
 
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maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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Bad idea!!!
Theres about 94% failure rate.
Whatever your choices, I hope love & peace finds you🤗🌹💔
 
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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

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sticking with FS hanging and taking pills / sniffing lines beforehand. Thanks for the advice if I don't make a goodbye thread tomorrow.

This is it. Thank you. Goodbye
 
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opheliaoveragain

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wishing you find the peace you seek. we're here for you.
 
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