It's depression my friend and so many other issues I'm just tired :( but also part of my sad cuz I had so much hope that things would work out
I'm so sorry about losing your job?My heart broke in a million pieces when I read your post. I am 64 years young and last June I lost my job becasue of Covid 19, and YES, I have looked for a new job and guess what, age discrimination big time. I also have massive depression. I mention all of this only becasue we are alot alike and I certainly can see where you are coming from. Now with everything said, NO I am NOT a prolifer at all!!, please take a step back and make 100% sure. I say this because, I have had 2 attempts so far, and all of my buttons are being pushed to the max, BUT ctb is one and done, no do overs ever. I truly feel your pain and dispair, I am in the same boat, and I love, care and have all the empathy in this world and all worlds for and to you. My wish for you is a lovely day at the beach with plenty of sun and cold drinks!! Walter
HI! Life in general for me has LOTS of ups and more downs. My "parents" NEVER wanted me, and called me "the mistake" to my face and out in public till I was kicked out. They kicked me out when they figured out that I was bi. I was married, she left me, saying that my depression was something that she did not want to deal with. I have no kids either. I agree with you that life has failed me, BUT after finding Sanctioned Suicide, I have at least found love, caring and empathy from people who can understand where I am coming from. I am in the U.S. and at least for now I am getting unemployment money to cover living. After my 2nd attempt, I had to fight like heck from getting a long stay, at least 6 months in a hospital setting. You and me are like twins and if you would like to talk I am here for you!! Walter
Not sure where you live, but here in the UK things have changed, unless you have kids/a disability/drug addiction/etc (and you're a single healthy adult who's able to work) then you barely get anything
