I'm going to ctb by SN infront of people within coming weeks, I have no other option left, I'm fucking 25 and yet My mum and sister sleeps besides me in the bedroom so have to wait until late night to prepare my meds and drink. Just pray that my body doesnt have seizure or make noises after feeling unconcious. Cant book hotel room as I am an open book and easy to read body language and face. Also to Inform you guys I'm not doing this act in any kind of desparation. I'm already dead to even properly plan how am I gonna enjoy my last moments(Even if I plan i have no energy to do anything).
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Shadowplay
Average life non-enjoyer
- Sep 11, 2021
- 853
What on earth does this mean? That when you go to book the hotel they will know you're really buying a ticket? Can't you just book online? I'm confuzzled.
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I mean when I enter the hotel they will know what I'm upto. Whenever I step out of house everyone keeps a watch on me as I look depressed af. Its something with my appearance, I look high all the time(even though I dont drink or smoke anymore). My friends randomly ask me am I drunk or something
No they won't. Wear a face mask and a hat if you're that worried about how you'll look to the hotel staff. They see tons of people everyday, they aren't gonna look at you and say "well well well this guy looks like he's about to kill himself tonight". You're being paranoid for no reason. Just book a hotel room.
Shadowplay
Average life non-enjoyer
- Sep 11, 2021
- 853
Yeah I doubt that very much. People don't care as much about you anywhere near as much you think you do. Is it that hard to look quote/unquote normal? Even if you do look stoned or drunk (!?!), I hardly think hotel staff are gunna give a shit. I'm sure they've seen all types; they're hardly on the lookout for suicidal people. Hey look we're all mentally ill here, but seriously dude get a grip.
Dang beat me to it! Pretty much this.
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