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Made my "rope" :hihi: tested it, got a safe place and now I'm just waiting for the assholes to sleep so I can FINALLY catch the bus (I wanted to do this since september, and I tried at first to die with 1000s of plastic bags but the panic was stronger than my will to be free). Then I tried the tourniquet method that only works if you can compress both sides of your neck. A week or less after that attempt, I tried to overdose on fucking water to only vomit and feel nausea. But there's no way this time I'll fail. I made sure that everything it's going to work when I execute this. There's no way my parents will find me even If they wake up because I will lock the door where I'm doing it.

Maybe I'll drink some alcohol before I do it to confuse my lizard brain so the bastard will let me hang myself.

I can't wait to be out of this PRISON of flesh.
Sorry for the english. Thanks for creating a place for people like me.
 
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Samuel

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Apr 25, 2018
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Peace be with you.
 
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Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
NoLifeNoPain said:
Made my "rope" :hihi: tested it, got a safe place and now I'm just waiting for the assholes to sleep so I can FINALLY catch the bus (I wanted to do this since september, and I tried at first to die with 1000s of plastic bags but the panic was stronger than my will to be free). Then I tried the tourniquet method that only works if you can compress both sides of your neck. A week or less after that attempt, I tried to overdose on fucking water to only vomit and feel nausea. But there's no way this time I'll fail. I made sure that everything it's going to work when I execute this. There's no way my parents will find me even If they wake up because I will lock the door where I'm doing it.

Maybe I'll drink some alcohol before I do it to confuse my lizard brain so the bastard will let me hang myself.

I can't wait to be out of this PRISON of flesh.
Sorry for the english. Thanks for creating a place for people like me.
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Report back tomorrow morning if you're still with us if you feel like it.
 
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WakingUpFrightened

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Jun 24, 2018
13
Well dude, out of all the people here you really seem to be the one who's most "set" on doing it, I hope you're happy with your choice, peace!
 
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Samuel

Samuel

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Apr 25, 2018
243
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WakingUpFrightened said:
Well dude, out of all the people here you really seem to be the one who's most "set" on doing it, I hope you're happy with your choice, peace!
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Hes got this, he's fearless.
 
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Jun 10, 2018
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NoLifeNoPain said:
Made my "rope" :hihi: tested it, got a safe place and now I'm just waiting for the assholes to sleep so I can FINALLY catch the bus (I wanted to do this since september, and I tried at first to die with 1000s of plastic bags but the panic was stronger than my will to be free). Then I tried the tourniquet method that only works if you can compress both sides of your neck. A week or less after that attempt, I tried to overdose on fucking water to only vomit and feel nausea. But there's no way this time I'll fail. I made sure that everything it's going to work when I execute this. There's no way my parents will find me even If they wake up because I will lock the door where I'm doing it.

Maybe I'll drink some alcohol before I do it to confuse my lizard brain so the bastard will let me hang myself.

I can't wait to be out of this PRISON of flesh.
Sorry for the english. Thanks for creating a place for people like me.
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Fwiw your English is better than my Romanian...
 
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chronicpainnomore

Not Circling the Drain Anymore
May 31, 2018
310
Good luck. I hope everything goes as smoothly as it can.
 
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KillMe

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Jun 13, 2018
19
Good luck and I hope you find the peace you're looking for.
 
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Soon4me

Soon4me

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Jun 15, 2018
1,589
Farewell and safe travels enjoy Level 2
 
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GOODBYE
 
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Why.

Why.

Member
Jun 8, 2018
62
Good luck.
 
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skyofAuroras

Student
Apr 10, 2018
135
Good luck and I hope you find your peace.
 
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Deleted member 847

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goddamnit I failed. My "rope" (towels and a blanket) was too big and I couldn't tie it to anything. A neighbor almost saw me. Now I'm scared. This motherfucker could call the police on me. At least I found something that can hold my weight.
 
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Deleted member 847

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This is my last goodbye crap. I'm ridiculous seriously.
 
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Deleted member 847

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Unfortunately, yes.
 
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Gumby

Gumby

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Jun 10, 2018
103
We're all in this together
 
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Cloudstar

Cloudstar

Dancing with Death
Jun 25, 2018
26
And peace at last
 
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millefeui

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2018
1,033
Why not buy a rope instead? It is neither expensive or difficult to buy. Better luck next time.
 
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KillMe

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Jun 13, 2018
19
Are you planning on trying this method again?
 
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Soon4me

Soon4me

Enlightened
Jun 15, 2018
1,589
How many hours before atempting to CTB did you last eat and drink ?
Cause i'll be using hanging and i don't want to soil and wet myself
Not that it would mater to me but for whoever removes my body
 
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