CTB for me will be an act of self love..

[plsimnotokay]

It'll be the bravest and kindest decision I'll make for myself.

 

[Parsley]

I've been thinking the same thing.
Mercy

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel the same way. That is exactly what I see ctb as being, as I am freeing myself from all the suffering and I will finally be at rest. To die as soon as possible would be the best thing for myself. If I stay alive there is the chance of things getting so much worse and death would take away all of my problems.

I deserve to be at peace, and I believe that we do not deserve the suffering that this life gives us. Life is extremely cruel and unfair and it is sad how so many people endure lives filled with pain. I hope that you find what you are looking for. I wish you the best.

 

[hankbank3928]

You're right, that's a great way to look at it.

 

[Lost Magic]

I feel the same way. That is exactly what I see ctb as being, as I am freeing myself from all the suffering and I will finally be at rest. To die as soon as possible would be the best thing for myself. If I stay alive there is the chance of things getting so much worse and death would take away all of my problems.

I deserve to be at peace, and I believe that we do not deserve the suffering that this life gives us. Life is extremely cruel and unfair and it is sad how so many people endure lives filled with pain. I hope that you find what you are looking for. I wish you the best.

Funeral I have read many of your posts over the years and I know that you suffer. Wouldn't it be a good idea to try to get some SN or N for safe keeping for the future? Peace of mind is important and you know Euthanasia will most likely never be made legal. I mean it might but will most likely be reserved for the terminally ill. By the way I live in the UK as well and I am a member of the Dignity in Dying organisation, so I know what's going on here. The UK government are not making much progress on this important issue.

It'll be the bravest and kindest decision I'll make for myself.

I feel the same way. I am about to get my will witnessed next week at my bank. I have my N in place and I hope to be gone before next summer. If I am still here, I won't be happy. It's so tiring being in a world when you feel like you shouldn't be here.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wouldn't it be a good idea to try to get some SN or N for safe keeping for the future?

Yes, that would be the best idea but it is easier said than done. I think that the big problem for me is that I would fear it going wrong in someway and getting caught trying to order ctb materials.

I posted about N in another thread and how I would not consider it as others struggle so much with ordering it and it is illegal and all of that just scares me. I do struggle with the fact that there is so much secrecy involved in ctb and that there are others who want to interfere and try to stop us, at least for me it is so difficult. I fear doing anything that would make my life situation worse. Someday I will find a way though, no matter what.
Anyway I wish you, and the OP and all the others peace.

 

[2dietmrow]

It'll be the bravest and kindest decision I'll make for myself.

Its indeed brave and also the ultimate act of self love