Gray Wounds
A Phantasmagoria
- Jun 27, 2018
- 575
Goddamn. I've just read the worst shit today on facebook. An anonymous user just popped out and posted something that she (it is a she) will end up killing herself because she cannot get the attention she wanted. I understand that humans too needs to be asked if they are okay. But damn, isn't our answers always the same? "Yeah, I'm fine." because we do not want to burden them because we know how it feels. And yet they do this to attract attention and likes and be fucking famous? This is madness beyond measure.
I am pro-suicide and is pro-choice, but this made me angry. Attention won't come to you if you won't attract it. But if the method is the threat of suicide posted in the social media for likes and fame, hell no. I do not support that. Mostly if it is an empty threat, containing nothing but a wishful thinking to be problematic and suicidal even when she, in reality, isn't.
For years I've witnessed, both myself and many other self-harmers and suicidals end their lives because it is just so painful to continue on living. They've castrated their tongues and stayed silent until life devoured them. And yet, what was it that they get in the end? Scorns from the fucking normal society. The very same society that hails and helps them who are not really suicidal but just mere attention seekers. Liars get to have the most help while the real ones get to be rejected and isolated. Madness!
I do not intend to judge them or whatsoever. I know that we all have our own levels of pain and tolerance to it. But this is just something I cannot forgive. It's a jest. But it's society anyway.
And then humans will ask her in the comments if she's fine, something like "talk to me" or "I feel the same". and yet she'll be making another problem stating that they only come to her when it's too late or when they need something. And she will just continue on telling them that she's fine, creating her own pain just as the actress she is.
Am I wrong for thinking and feeling this way? Or is the society so fucked?
I am pro-suicide and is pro-choice, but this made me angry. Attention won't come to you if you won't attract it. But if the method is the threat of suicide posted in the social media for likes and fame, hell no. I do not support that. Mostly if it is an empty threat, containing nothing but a wishful thinking to be problematic and suicidal even when she, in reality, isn't.
For years I've witnessed, both myself and many other self-harmers and suicidals end their lives because it is just so painful to continue on living. They've castrated their tongues and stayed silent until life devoured them. And yet, what was it that they get in the end? Scorns from the fucking normal society. The very same society that hails and helps them who are not really suicidal but just mere attention seekers. Liars get to have the most help while the real ones get to be rejected and isolated. Madness!
I do not intend to judge them or whatsoever. I know that we all have our own levels of pain and tolerance to it. But this is just something I cannot forgive. It's a jest. But it's society anyway.
And then humans will ask her in the comments if she's fine, something like "talk to me" or "I feel the same". and yet she'll be making another problem stating that they only come to her when it's too late or when they need something. And she will just continue on telling them that she's fine, creating her own pain just as the actress she is.
Am I wrong for thinking and feeling this way? Or is the society so fucked?