Ctb because you don't want to get old

[agentgeez]

Funnily enough, even though for most of my life I've been doing things that an old person could do physically, I'm still attached to my youth. Like some people have mentioned above, being old and frail might not matter much if you're happy and fulfilled. It's mental deterioration that worries me, whether it's little things like decreased reaction times limiting your ability in certain hobbies, or a slow consumption of your brain until you reach senility, which I've witnessed firsthand. There's also the idea that certain opportunities and feelings you have during youth are exclusive to the young. While I can see the appeal of being full of experience and wisdom, not stressing so much about the details because you are almost done with life, I can see why some people regret not being able to experience certain things to the fullest while young, and even if they did experience them, it's not to their satisfaction. I think being satisfied while young is crucial to being satisfied while you're old. Whether it's mental health or financial security, things start to 'crystallise' as they go on, which is why I think the past is very important. I can see myself being dissatisfied with my age later on in life because I'd feel as if I never lived the years that came before. I read a hypothetical about someone going into a coma at the age of 5 and waking up at 80 that would probably capture a similar feeling of despair.

 

[FohPah]

One thing I fear is that I'll become like the "boomer" stereotype. No young person wants to grow up to become out of touch and resistant to new ideas, so who am I to think I'm immune to it?

 

[Soulless Angel]

Growing old scares me more then death. Even if you live to an old age fit and healthy, at any point past 70, your body could just go Nah, its ok game over, and bam you are dead. No warning, just time's up.
Also growing old, more years of pain, more years too look back on with regret, Nah that shit ain't for me

 

[Anthagonos]

Turning old really sucks. But wasting my youth hurts even more

Quote of the year.

 

[braketimez]

Does anybody else here feel like they would'be ctb at the age of 40 or 50 even if life was good because getting old sucks?

For me I feel like even if I had a good life, I still would ctb at some age (probably between 40 and 50) because getting old is one of the worst things in life.

Your body and even brain gets weaker every day and you just can't do anything about it. Taking medicine every day, vision gets worse and it's unstoppable and only gets worse as time goes.

Yeah, aging is a big reason I'm hoping to end my life early.

 

[Dreamless Sleep]

Do late bloomers stay younger longer?

Because I'm 29 almost 30 and it's crazy how little my appearance has changed in a decade, I do look older than I did at 20 but at 20 I looked like I was 16 or something. So now that I'm 29 I look like I'm in my early 20s and sometimes even get mistaken for being like 19 by some people who are close to my age.

I've always been perceived by other people a lot younger than I am.

Also my health is no different than when I was 20 besides the fact that I have to watch my weight/diet more closely.

My father looks young for his age and my grandfather had crazy strong genes, did labor work in his 90s which is insane.

I think there are a lot of factors but yeah genes help a lot.

I was one who always looked older when I was a teenager... got into bars 4-5 years before I was legal. But as i got older i stayed pretty young looking into my 40s.

Well... that shit caught up to me the last few years. I'm starting to look beat. I think part of it is my severe depression tbh. I stopped caring for myself. Plus decades of chronic pain. Whatever it is I definitely look 50 now. Its depressing af. Getting old sucks. lol

 

[NeverGrowUp]

Seeing as how miserable I have been since 14, that I'm now 21, and the fact that gays seem to become undesirable at around their late 20s... yes I absolutely do not want to be around when I'm older. It would be a cosmic joke to be experiencing this mental anguish in addition to physical ailments.

I do feel a constant regret about "wasting my youth" by not having a relationship (beyond one extremely short fling), not hooking up enough, and being generally dissatisfied. I tell myself once I have a peaceful method then I will go hookup a lot and do whatever I want because I'm going to die anyways.

When I was 14 I used to watch the live action Peter Pan and almost live vicariously through it, I would cry and beg to be taken to Neverland. Now that I'm older I still wish it, but the older I get the more "embarrassing" it is to feel that way so I know I need to end it.

I'm 21 just came back from wasting loads of money and getting into debt at university and don't want to play the career game. Really do want "always to be a boy and have fun." That sentiment becomes more sad than fun if I was a middle aged man living at home (no offense to anyone who does that, fuck societies norms!)