I remember there was this famous girl who CTBed by train in Russia I think. She went viral just because she is a pretty young lady, and I am jealous of her. I want people to look at me after I CTB and say poor girl she was so pretty. I want to be so pretty that people will care about my CTB. I want to get attention and love but I guess that doesn't matter cause I won't know if the attempt was successful anyway. I want people to look at me and say don't CTB you are so pretty and not say other boring pro-life bullshit.
If anything, to me, seeing a "beautiful" person ctb only makes me realize how much pain we all secretly go through. Here you have this "beautiful" person that presumably has everything along with looks, yet they were secretly hurting just as bad as someone thats not "beautiful."
I think it's the shock factor most people have because to them it's a sideswipe, a real curveball. Beauty is attributed to having a good life, great relationships, wealth, etc. That person may only look beautiful because it's a facade to make people think that everything in their life is ok, when it's not.
In the end, whether beautiful/attractive or not, we all suffer. Some in more silence than others.
Sorry, may have rambled a bit haha. Not sure if any of that makes sense, still jacked up on pre-workout.