
selfeater
it’s my fault for being me
- Jan 11, 2024
- 17
Things have been tough lately
Seriously my nose just started bleeding
This sucks
Ok I left the chair I was sitting and crying at and I managed to make it to the bathroom without anyone seeing me and for the people who did see me I dont think my bloody and tear covered face and hands registered and so they didn't see anything
Fortunately I get to get off work now
I think I'm going to quit this job I can't handle it
Walking to car now
My brains gone into fuck it I don't care mode now
I just tried to get into the wrong car AND THE PERSON WHO OWNED THE CAR SAW ME HAHA
I'm going crazy lmao
I'm going to drive to my next job and cry on the way there and also there too
There's less cars in their parking lot
I hope this is it for me and I decide to quit this job
There's blood on my pants but fortunately they're black people won't notice
I honestly didn't cry too much on the car ride some dry sobs and then was it
Now I just feel a large achy feeling in my chest and your usual dark depression
Been a while since I had a big break like this the last time I really remember was when I got carted off to the hospital rip
Listening to my "Sad Songs" playlist lol
I'm tired of experiencing this
I have 20 min till work I'll watch some YouTube and see if I have any food in my bag
I just went in but a guy was still cleaning so I wait
Just talking to him I felt like I was gonna collapse
It felt like everyone knew
I wish I could call off
Definitely probably gonna quit my library job
Work is over now
Seeing the kids cheered me up but as soon as they left the depression came right back
I definitely feel like I'm on a breaking point and I don't even understand why
Well I guess I kinda get it
I just keep mistake after mistake
I'm going to drive home now
Today was a really hard day.
Seriously my nose just started bleeding
This sucks
Ok I left the chair I was sitting and crying at and I managed to make it to the bathroom without anyone seeing me and for the people who did see me I dont think my bloody and tear covered face and hands registered and so they didn't see anything
Fortunately I get to get off work now
I think I'm going to quit this job I can't handle it
Walking to car now
My brains gone into fuck it I don't care mode now
I just tried to get into the wrong car AND THE PERSON WHO OWNED THE CAR SAW ME HAHA
I'm going crazy lmao
I'm going to drive to my next job and cry on the way there and also there too
There's less cars in their parking lot
I hope this is it for me and I decide to quit this job
There's blood on my pants but fortunately they're black people won't notice
I honestly didn't cry too much on the car ride some dry sobs and then was it
Now I just feel a large achy feeling in my chest and your usual dark depression
Been a while since I had a big break like this the last time I really remember was when I got carted off to the hospital rip
Listening to my "Sad Songs" playlist lol
I'm tired of experiencing this
I have 20 min till work I'll watch some YouTube and see if I have any food in my bag
I just went in but a guy was still cleaning so I wait
Just talking to him I felt like I was gonna collapse
It felt like everyone knew
I wish I could call off
Definitely probably gonna quit my library job
Work is over now
Seeing the kids cheered me up but as soon as they left the depression came right back
I definitely feel like I'm on a breaking point and I don't even understand why
Well I guess I kinda get it
I just keep mistake after mistake
I'm going to drive home now
Today was a really hard day.