This world truly is so hellish and to me it makes sense wishing for permanent nonexistence where all problems are solved and where this existence will be erased from our memories. Existence really is so unnecessarily cruel and it's awful how one can suffer so unbearably as long as they exist here, to me it's so horrific how suicide methods can fail, that is exactly what I fear, it's such an awful punishment how despite all of the suffering and endless torment that exists here we are denied a reliable way to leave that involves limited complications and no risks, I hate how suicide isn't viewed as the valid option that it truly is, I hope that you find what you search for.
