Story Crisis: frozen by fear while my mum lies dying in a hospice

[BluesRunTheGame]

So I've been in a severe anxiety crisis for about five weeks now. Two weeks ago I found out my mum has a terminal brain disease that is merciless and fast-acting. The rest of my family have visited (about 120 miles away) but I can barely leave the house and I dont think they get how bad I am. So I've got guilt upon anxiety upon the anxiety that was already there. And to top it all off I'm a mentally ill broke addict stuck in a goddawful halfway house where a new housemate is triggering me daily with his noise.

I have SN but I drink alcohol so would only take it the next morning. So maybe tomorrow morning...

 

[Sittichmutter]

I am sorry for your pain.
Is there any way to lessen your anxiety? Maybe CTBing under such circunstances is not the best option.

 

[Zegers]

It's a difficult situation. I know what it's like to have anxiety that going to the corner is like travelling around the world.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you are going through and I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. This life is just so cruel and unfair. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I am sorry for your pain.
Is there any way to lessen your anxiety? Maybe CTBing under such circunstances is not the best option.

If I could stay at one of my other family members' places for a bit (a lot nearer) that could maybe help but every single one is currently impractical if not impossible.

 

[Sittichmutter]

If I could stay at one of my other family members' places for a bit (a lot nearer) that could maybe help but every single one is currently impractical if not impossible.

Did you try asking? Ask for help. And If you can, Go visit your mom. To spend time with her and say goodbye will soothe your and her soul.
I wish you get to see your mom. I wish I could help you.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Did you try asking? Ask for help. And If you can, Go visit your mom. To spend time with her and say goodbye will soothe your and her soul.
I wish you get to see your mom. I wish I could help you.

Yes I've reached out to all of them. And the whole point is anxiety has crippled me so much that I can't go visit!

 

[Eternally Dottie]

Yes I've reached out to all of them. And the whole point is anxiety has crippled me so much that I can't go visit!

Could you get a prescription for Diazepam or something to help with the anxiety temporarily to enable you to visit your mum? Sorry you are in this awful situation

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Could you get a prescription for Diazepam or something to help with the anxiety temporarily to enable you to visit your mum? Sorry you are in this awful situation

My doc knows I'm an alcoholic so no :(

Although having said that these are extreme circumstances... Bless you for coming up with a pragmatic suggestion :)

 

[Eternally Dottie]

My doc knows I'm an alcoholic so no :(

Sorry- I hope you manage to get to visit her somehow