Venting Crippling Loneliness

[SomeBody123]

I'm not used to posing here so apologies if I make any mistakes.

I'm so fucking lonely. I don't know how to make friends and I hate everything. My family doesn't understand me nor do they care to.

My mom just blames the Internet because God forbid I have valid reason to.

Even online people ignore me. Neglected by my parents too. I don't know what to do. I don't really want to die but I hate being alive. It's all just pain or pain at a later date. I wish I knew how to be human like all these other people. I wish I were dead. I hate being mentally ill in a family that doesn't give a shit. I'm so fucking tired my emotions are beyond me. No body truly loves me or cares about me but I know if I die then fucking pretend that they're upset when they never gave a shit about me when I was alive.

It's so obvious I was never mentioned to live past 9.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

Hey, I get you, I struggle to connect with people too and I'm incredibly lonely. Isolation really deteriorates you to your core. I'm here if you wanna chat, genuinely, just shoot me a message

 

[gottacheckout]

You are in the right place, many people here have a mental illness. Hell I have a few myself. And at times I find myself struggling a lot like you are now. When I recognize what is happening I try to slow down my mind. I take several deep breaths and exhale slowly. Then I try to relax my chest and abdominal muscles. Still breathing deeply, close your eyes and calm your mind.

Sometimes it works and other times I still end up spiraling out of control.