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DanielDanDean
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- Jul 18, 2024
- 27
As for every time in my life I'm experiencing fear.
As much as I fear my future with my "girlfriend" whom I can't leave because she said she'll CTB and name me as the responsible of all her hardships and/or stalk me if I do so.
As much as I fear having to disappear and start my life from zero
As much as I hate life, I hate having back pains, headaches, no money left at the end of the month etc.
As much as I don't see any outcome in my situation
I couldn't try to CTB today
Had everything I needed to CTB and couldn't do it.
Maybe is it because she didn't insult me in the last 48 hours, maybe is it because I was scared of being "saved",
I was scared of failing and didn't do it.
I'm done with myself.
As much as I fear my future with my "girlfriend" whom I can't leave because she said she'll CTB and name me as the responsible of all her hardships and/or stalk me if I do so.
As much as I fear having to disappear and start my life from zero
As much as I hate life, I hate having back pains, headaches, no money left at the end of the month etc.
As much as I don't see any outcome in my situation
I couldn't try to CTB today
Had everything I needed to CTB and couldn't do it.
Maybe is it because she didn't insult me in the last 48 hours, maybe is it because I was scared of being "saved",
I was scared of failing and didn't do it.
I'm done with myself.