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Chemi

Chemi

*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
Nov 25, 2025
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i was thinking of changing mine away from the fish after xmas to something, but it's tough to drop something someone made for you
Whatever you choose to do, you will forever be a fishy in my heart <3 haha
 
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U. A.

U. A.

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yes, i feel i am even more identified with the fish now than my last avatar.
well we'll see
 
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gunmetalblue11

gunmetalblue11

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it's tough to drop something someone made for you
You could have someone add to a copy, maybe add a background or some colours to make something new out of something valuable and beautiful
 
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U. A.

U. A.

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i don't even remember your last avatar
exactly. it's my profile banner now

You could have someone add to a copy, maybe add a background or some colours to make something new out of something valuable and beautiful
i actually have something specific in mind. i also actually already modified this one; the background wasn't transparent and the eye was less of a fish eye originally.
 
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boddibo

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@U. A. ha, that's why it felt familiar, i kinda remember it fully [i have aphantasia so that's really hard to remember things visually]
 
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boddibo

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now everytime i'm like "who the fuck is that?" because of my pfp— that's just me.
 
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boddibo

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the purple B really feels like my whole identity on sasu,
sometimes when i see the same one on somebody else i'm like 'wait, that's me' and i'm like 'are you dumb that's one of the default pfp on here'
 
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gunmetalblue11

gunmetalblue11

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Makes sense especially with aphantasia that you'd identified with it after years.
Maybe make a petition to be the sole owner of said default colour hehe
 
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Chemi

Chemi

*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
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May I say @boddibo , you look really cute now with your tiny hat

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boddibo

boddibo

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uhhh, only having words in my head,
my memories aren't made with images so I tend to forget things easily (well, depression is not helping my memory that's for sure)
and if I try to 'remember' how people look like it's like really basic things related to them, I can't even describe the people I know well, I often miss changes about ppl, or sometimes i'm just like 'i feel like something is different' but i could never point out what

when I learnt it wasn't the norm to 'not see in your head' or 'not visualize things', i was bamboozled


sorry it's really hard to describe what i think about in english rn i'm fucking tired
 
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gunmetalblue11

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That's really interesting. I'm curious to how it would be like to not have memories in images but rather words. It reminds me of how blind people dream of colours and shades of light. Fascinating how the human mind adapts and changes depending on the person.
 
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boddibo

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I'm curious to how it would be like to not have memories in images but rather words
It's a hard thing to describe (lol) because it's not like the inner voice I have telling my memories, it's like keywords being spread in my head when I think about something, and yet you'll see my eyes wandering around like I'm 'looking for something in my mind' despite not being able to visualize anything (probably a way to focus myself? idk), I'd honestly love to fully understand how my own thinking and memory process work
 
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gunmetalblue11

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That's interesting. I can imagine it's hard to explain or even describe for others to understand. I read I can't remember where that a person who was deaf imagined her "inner mind" or just memories as if they were in a library. Because she associates the place being as silent as her life is through others perspective. So I can image maybe with less visual descriptive factors you own mind space maybe could be explained.
 

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