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Hey @donealready and hey @heavyeyes havent seen you in a while, hope all is well.
 
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Hey @ClownMe!! It's good to see you all. <3 Things have been very rough on my end that's why I haven't been very active. I've been looking for a job for the past 8 or 9 months and it's starting to take a toll on me. I'm giving up hope that I'll ever be employed. I desperately need money if I'm ever going to actually get out and live life but it seems things always push me back to ctb no matter how hard I try. Maybe ctb is my destiny? Also I'm glad the site wasn't taken down. Anyway sorry for the long ass rant lol. I hope all is well with you and everyone here too.
 
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Dont give up just yet. I just got a new job after being out of action for months and start training monday.

In saying that though im still unbelievably stressed and suicidal. Like i dont see the point in doing anything really because our existences are so pointless and everything's so damn expensive.
 
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I'm really trying hard not to give up. Believe me I cry every night about it. I don't want to have to give up but I'm tired.

Congrats on your new job. <3 I hope training goes well for you and that they treat you well.

I hear ya on still being stressed and suicidal. Everything is so damn expensive here too. It's all work, work, and more work. I don't want to live to work. I just want to pay off my debts, save some money for my family, and maybe do a few things I've been wanting to do before ctb.
 
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Yeah. They want you to waste your life away working, it's ridiculous. Life just seriously sucks and people just lie down and accept it.
 
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That's capitalism for ya. I wish I had been born to a wealthy family. Sounds shitty to say since I really don't have the worst family ever. I'm not trying to be ungrateful but when you're poor the system does everything in its power to keep you poor. There's no way I'll ever work my way out of it. If anything I'll be homeless one day. That's a fate worse than death. Well besides working myself to death for some American dream that'll never happen.
 
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If i ever get a place and im still alive (unlikely lol) come to australia and live with me 🏡. But yeah capitalism is a fucking joke. I MIGHT be able to retire at like 65/70 but that's only because i dont really plan on having a partner, I definetly dont want kids and I don't plan on having any more pets after Frankie because ill be heartbroken once he dies. The worst part about capitalism to me is that all your hard work really isn't rewarded in the end, by the time you retire your body is already shutting down.
 
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