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Beachedwhale
Mage
- Mar 3, 2021
- 526
I could've had an amazing life but I fucked up. I made so many mistakes and missed out on so much, and now much older I have severe fatigue and I don't know why. I'm getting older and missed the boat on some things. My brain torments me with past memories and regret constantly. I was always a perfectionist, and it was my downfall in a really bad way.
I want to keep trying to pursue the dream that I had abandoned, but it will never be the same, I am so tired, my issues like social phobia have worsened so much, I didn't achieve the things I wanted to or enjoy what I wanted to, I have fucked up my CV...the past few years were a complete waste, my degree was a waste. I am completely torn between wanting to end it and using what I still have to try to salvage a life.
The tragic thing is that this is the way I thought many years ago, when I still could've salvaged an amazing life. So it was a lie...but it is also a self-fulfilling prophecy, because now I really did miss out on many opportunities.
I want to keep trying to pursue the dream that I had abandoned, but it will never be the same, I am so tired, my issues like social phobia have worsened so much, I didn't achieve the things I wanted to or enjoy what I wanted to, I have fucked up my CV...the past few years were a complete waste, my degree was a waste. I am completely torn between wanting to end it and using what I still have to try to salvage a life.
The tragic thing is that this is the way I thought many years ago, when I still could've salvaged an amazing life. So it was a lie...but it is also a self-fulfilling prophecy, because now I really did miss out on many opportunities.
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