Would you please, kindly, pm me a SN source. I don't know if you can see what I've been posting somehow. I'm planning to ctb after a severe disease in my spine got a lot worse in 2023, and I'm looking toward a really horrible existence. I've also been a supporter of a right-to-die organization in my country for about 10 years, because a blanket "suicide is never ok" is clearly completely naive.
Anyway, I feel like I just MISSED the bus because apparently now is when SN is tightening up. I've read Final Exit and a lot of the PPH. I've gotten benzos, and am ready to order heroin from the dark web today (found the vendor, etc). I'm super concerned that O/D is not reliable, and I will end up brain damaged or with other complications (I can't even really heave if vomiting a lot because of my spine). I'm going to keep looking for the cardiac switch pills, and anti-emetic, but I'm not that hopeful about getting all those too. Having SN would let me relax and focus on getting better or at least staying the same, rather than preparing for the worst. Thanks for reading.