My example is probably a bad one - when I felt like this, I dropped out and got myself an easy job that didn't require a degree.
Presuming you successfully graduate - do you still want to work in the profession you initially picked? It sounds like it's something challenging and probably not inspiring to you. What was your motivation to go to college in the first place?
if you don't mind answering.. how did that go for you?
Well, it is indeed challenging, it consumes all my spare time - when I actually have some, and honestly I think it to be quite a competite area whislt I am not like it for a bit. To be honest, I'm not sure, since I am constantly changing my mind I've considered doing lots of completly unrelated stuff and therefore I have absolutely no clue about who I am or what I want to do. Deep down maybe I still hold some love for the profession, though even if I don't, considering things end "well" I intent to stay in the field, cause well, it's a great one in my country, it gives me more possibilities and I could actually try to do something useful with it, instead of just making a paycheck, maybe getting some reward emotionally speaking.
At first, I believed I wanted to be a researcher, but as soon I got into the academy I changed my mind, cause I realized I didn't have anything in common with the area, and that it was mostly and influence i got from my ex-boyfriend, so I discarded it. But at the time, i was really into neurology, and wished to understand how the mind and body worked as whole. Eventually I lost, as usual, my interest. And today I basically focus on visualizing a future where I can provide medical care to the poor and segregated all around the world. But honestly, even with it I can't make myself get up and work.
I'm in the same position. Falling behind in classes, stress, little motivation to do work. I feel like I have an insurmountable about of assignments and spend most of my day procrastinating by sleeping. Sometimes I sleep during classes too. I'm going to destroy my gpa and never be able to graduate. I'm so stressed but can't do any work until the literal last minute. Sorry I made this about me but yeah I'm in the same position.
don't worry, really. this post is also a space for anyone that relates to vent. I am always avaiable if you want to talk :)
School was really stressful to me too. I would say focus on why you're putting yourself though that. Is there a particular line of work you aiming for? Would trade school a better fit?
today I basically focus on visualizing a future where I can provide medical care to the poor and segregated all around the world.
I've been trying to give a meaning/purpose to this journey, tho till now I had no sucess at all. It seems quite impossible when life itself is meaningless to me. I've developed some sort of disgust towards humanity and that does not help at all, but I thought that maybe I could turn my disbelief, frustration and anger towards to society into something productive that could both associate this feelings and a solution, not that I'd be able to heal the world, but at least help some people, instead of just feeling hopeless and furious.But, as they say, it's easier said than done.
As for trading, that'd be an option if there was anything else I enjoyed. Not that I love medicine, I'm definetly not of those who've always dreamt of being a doctor, but there is nothing else I like to do. So it'd be pointless i guess.
I may not be the best example either, i dropped out of vet school n went to study something easy that didnt acrually required much study, im between cooking n bakery school. Its less srressful for sure, n i can concentrate on getting better or ctb if i happen to feel too shitty for it.
I would suggest u take a year off if thats a possibility. If u really want to ctb, then maybe its time to drop out. If not, u need to put in perspective your own current limits and see whats best for u atm. Like seeking help for your mental illness, or lessen the stress around you. Guess it depends on what you wanna do, id suggest leaving college for next year if you can n try to lift your spirits before starting again.
Whatever u choose, i hope u find peace in it! I know the struggle and making a decision can be very hard. But id imagine if you wanna finish college, doing it with a better mind set will prpbably be the best option.
As much as it's embarrassing to admit, I'm constantly shifting when it comes to cbt :/
Personally, I love what you did there. I myself considered dropping med school and pursuing bakery (although I have no talent at all). How is it like? Do you regret it? Would you mind sharing your experience?
