coping well, anyone have experience on going ghost from everyone? what is it like?

[plain_jane]

found that if I just start repeating mantras and do deep breathing whenever I think something negative, which is most times I think, I can stop spirals before they start. that and if I remind myself that I don't really matter. despite coping well, I've been thinking about ghosting my community and trying to find new friends, to be happier, which I don't really think would help but I can't help but think about impulsively every so once in a while. anyone have experience with this? I kind of want to die as well, but I promised I wouldn't.

 

[divinemistress36]

Another user on this site said a mantra she uses is "I'm not my mind, I'm not my body" when the intrusive thoughts hit