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Manfrotto99
Experienced
- Oct 10, 2023
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I am just wondering what peoples coping mechanisms are when you know ctb is inevitable and close by but you are just waiting for that right moment for your SI to give way?
How do other people get through each day when they know it's inevitable and life is only taking you on a miserable existence of needless suffering and pain. I am struggling with feeling immense fear and anxiety, while also feeling very angry and bitter for being forced into making this decision, due to circumstances beyond my control. I don't want to feed into this. I want to feel more at peace with things. I use to like gardening but I cannot do it now since I lost the company of my dog who was all I had. She loved being in the garden with me. I only find some bit of relief now for a couple of hours when im at the gym and challenge myself to lift weights. Any ideas on how I can come to peace with my decision and get through the days as I wait to ctb?
How do other people get through each day when they know it's inevitable and life is only taking you on a miserable existence of needless suffering and pain. I am struggling with feeling immense fear and anxiety, while also feeling very angry and bitter for being forced into making this decision, due to circumstances beyond my control. I don't want to feed into this. I want to feel more at peace with things. I use to like gardening but I cannot do it now since I lost the company of my dog who was all I had. She loved being in the garden with me. I only find some bit of relief now for a couple of hours when im at the gym and challenge myself to lift weights. Any ideas on how I can come to peace with my decision and get through the days as I wait to ctb?
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