oh dear. I'm so sorry you're feeling this awful, sending so much love.
I'm a sapphic/queer woman, and I've spent many years in therapy. all I've ever heard in terms of people recounting conversion therapy is that it is likely to be incredibly traumatic.
I'm not usually one to be all about self acceptance and positive thinking, I don't think, but I really, really do not think voluntary conversion therapy would yield a positive outcome. I'd absolutely recommend finding an LGBTQIA+ friendly therapist if that's at all possible for you, though I know they can be hard to find and often quite expensive. but then, conversion therapy tends to be costly as well as harmful.
all I'm saying, I guess, is that if you're considering this as an option, perhaps consider and compare other therapeutic approaches as beneficial options as well.
again, I'm so sorry you're at this point. I don't know your story/background nor do I have much context to go on but my heart breaks a little for you here. to hear of someone voluntarily considering conversion therapy says to me you're in a very awful place. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. sending love. I can't speak for the community as a whole here, but I for one would like to say I hear you, and I wish I could help in a larger capacity than words on a screen.