Help Controlling impulses to CTB

[RejectedKarma]

How do others manage to control impulses to CTB?

I am in and out of a state that I can't describe... anxiety, hopelessness...I don't really care about the name of it. I've made a pact with myself not to share my ctb ideation with anyone, I'm afraid of other people and professionals reactions , and I have a feeling that my life will never be the same again if I enter the mental health system.

Before, the thought of having a rational plan, of preparing and leaving things in order managed to calm me down and bring me peace. And then I was able to still hope and look forward for the future. But now I don't even want that. I don't want anything. So those impulses are back, stronger than before. I live next to a beach and it's very tempting.
Trying to control these impulses requires a lot of energy and I become very distressed and anxious.

 

[sleepingrabbit]

I feel the same way. I prefer to sleep. It's not the best strategy, but not being awake does prevent you from being able to make bad choices. When you are awake, come up with a safety plan.