LunarCharm
I’m ready to go
- Jul 2, 2023
- 73
I am very aware that nonessential material items are unimportant.
And yet I keep spending my money.
for context I "collect" things.
I collect anime figures (which in and of itself is a luxury hobby; collecting pretty plastic), I collect Liz Lisa (a j-fashion brand) clothing, plushies, etc.
my room is just a little bigger than the size of a closet (because it's not even a room..) so it doesnt take much to make my room look full, and honestly I'm happy with that.
I enjoy pink things, I enjoy anime (although I haven't watched anything new in 3 years), I enjoy fashion
but at the end of the day it's all pointless, I guess.
I personally think that my compulsion to collect (a hoarders mindset almost) stems from my lack of control on my life. Money is something I can control if I keep a stable job. My decor is something I can control. Etc.
I'm not really sure where I was going with this, but it's unrelated to other things so I'm putting it in off topic haha.
I like to think I'm not alone in this habit, but my family makes a point to shame me for it and my few friends aren't anywhere like this, so it really feels like a struggle I have to deal with on my own.
And yet I keep spending my money.
for context I "collect" things.
I collect anime figures (which in and of itself is a luxury hobby; collecting pretty plastic), I collect Liz Lisa (a j-fashion brand) clothing, plushies, etc.
my room is just a little bigger than the size of a closet (because it's not even a room..) so it doesnt take much to make my room look full, and honestly I'm happy with that.
I enjoy pink things, I enjoy anime (although I haven't watched anything new in 3 years), I enjoy fashion
but at the end of the day it's all pointless, I guess.
I personally think that my compulsion to collect (a hoarders mindset almost) stems from my lack of control on my life. Money is something I can control if I keep a stable job. My decor is something I can control. Etc.
I'm not really sure where I was going with this, but it's unrelated to other things so I'm putting it in off topic haha.
I like to think I'm not alone in this habit, but my family makes a point to shame me for it and my few friends aren't anywhere like this, so it really feels like a struggle I have to deal with on my own.