Okay...
I had an attempt about 3.5. years ago. I called pretty soon after taking it, maybe it took 30 minutes? maybe an hour? im sorry i dont remember better.;;; to get help and go to the hospital...i was starting to lose the ability to walk, speak, open my eyes etc. felt as though i was falling under the heaviest of sleeps
I havent faced anything permanent regarding side effects, unless u consider trauma and regret a side effect LOL...but yeah. just letting u know my anecdotal experience
please do ur own research tho ofc, im sorry you feel like this ur best option, i hope things get better for u . genuinely