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IWantToSleep
Experienced
- Dec 27, 2020
- 227
I want to die, don't want to upset my dad, even though I don't have a great relationship with him and we don't really get along that well, fantasizing that I can keep going until he dies if I just drink or do drugs everyday even though I have no access to either right now and that might not be realistic, I'm trying to acquire stuff to kill myself with even though I might want to keep going as an addict which could potentially mess up any progress I made with getting supplies (getting arrested, doing something and getting whatever I have confiscated, becoming homeless etc. idk). WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING I'M MOVING IN LIKE THREE DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS AT THE SAME TIME, MAKE YOUR FUCKING MIND UP