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[highlyvolatile]

Hi this is something I've been struggling with deciding for a while. I ordered my SN and it'll be here on the 28th. I haven't decided when I'll take it but ive been struggling deciding how i want to leave. I want to dispose of my phone but i also don't want to be alone in my final moments. My worst fear is that anyone will get in trouble or like be investigated when i die and that is the last thing i want to happen. I want to say goodbye to you all and my dear friend but I'm not sure how to go about all this. I still am iffy about leaving a note behind too. A part of me feels like maybe I should but the other part screams no. I don't want to be buried, nor do i want a funeral. Theyre too sad and the only times family gets together other than holidays and reunions.

Im really not sure what I should do. I can destroy my phone easily by dunking it in water or dropping something hard on it. But I am really unsure of what i should do. am i thinking about this too hard?

 

[Ghost2211]

I understand. I would also want to say goodbye, but having the iPad/phone allows tracking. You can always factory reset the phone. It only takes a couple clicks. Could always say goodbye then wipe the phone. I'd rather risk tracking than be alone.

 

[highlyvolatile]

I understand. I would also want to say goodbye, but having the iPad/phone allows tracking. You can always factory reset the phone. It only takes a couple clicks. Could always say goodbye then wipe the phone. I'd rather risk tracking than be alone.

I didn't think about factory resetting it. Like a friend I'd brought it up like what if it fails and i can't reach out to anyone. I hate i think too hard about these things.

 

[Indieblue]

Me too. I don't want any funeral. But then i am not bothered with leaving a note.

 

[CuddleHug]

I didn't think about factory resetting it. Like a friend I'd brought it up like what if it fails and i can't reach out to anyone. I hate i think too hard about these things.

Factory reset it the day before. Install only the basic apps you need until you CTB. You can then access the forum normally, just make sure you do it from a browser where it's easy to wipe cookies and data. You'll want to do that right after you drink the SN, otherwise it will be too late.

As for contacting friends, I guess texting still works? If they ask why you're not on WhatsApp/FB/IG or whatever, say you accidentally dropped it in the toilet and had to reset it or something like that?

 

[highlyvolatile]

Factory reset it the day before. Install only the basic apps you need until you CTB. You can then access the forum normally, just make sure you do it from a browser where it's easy to wipe cookies and data. You'll want to do that right after you drink the SN, otherwise it will be too late.

As for contacting friends, I guess texting still works? If they ask why you're not on WhatsApp/FB/IG or whatever, say you accidentally dropped it in the toilet and had to reset it or something like that?

Thank you that solves that. I currently use tor to browse the forums but thank you. I think I'll do that. I want to be as cautious as i possibly can be about all this.

 

[WhyamIstillhere]

I'll be going in a hotel room, I'll have a tablet/phone w/ me to pass time before I sleep. Even if they investigate my devices, I can't imagine they'd find anything about SS if I just clear history tbh. Is it standard to comb through everything the deceased person owned to find motive?

I'll be leaving a note with me which I hope will explain everything.

 

[highlyvolatile]

I'll be going in a hotel room, I'll have a tablet/phone w/ me to pass time before I sleep. Even if they investigate my devices, I can't imagine they'd find anything about SS if I just clear history tbh. Is it standard to comb through everything the deceased person owned to find motive?

I'll be leaving a note with me which I hope will explain everything.

When my mom died i didnt look through her stuff but other relatives did. I'm not sure if they comb thtough peoples stuff to find motive but im sure people look for anything they might have left behind tipping off that it was planned or something or even if they left like presents or something. My mom didnt leave a note but she left behind gifts. And writings that she wanted to go home. Im not sure if law enforcement or the people who find you would have any interest in it. idk.

 

[WhyamIstillhere]

When my mom died i didnt look through her stuff but other relatives did. I'm not sure if they comb thtough peoples stuff to find motive but im sure people look for anything they might have left behind tipping off that it was planned or something or even if they left like presents or something. My mom didnt leave a note but she left behind gifts. And writings that she wanted to go home. Im not sure if law enforcement or the people who find you would have any interest in it. idk.

That's why I'm not too worried about scrubbing devices tbh. Some day after I'm gone, it might be nice for my family to get onto my devices. See my conversations, find out who I really was as a person. If I scrub them, it's over, which in a sense is robbing them of it.

 

[Melkus2020]

If you leave a good note. They will understand why you done it. And they will leave your privacy alone. I have a very good s note in particular just in case.

 

[highlyvolatile]

That's why I'm not too worried about scrubbing devices tbh. Some day after I'm gone, it might be nice for my family to get onto my devices. See my conversations, find out who I really was as a person. If I scrub them, it's over, which in a sense is robbing them of it.

that's not a bad idea. a part of me just figured it'd be best to remove everything phone wise but i didn't think that they might want to see how i was.

If you leave a good note. They will understand why you done it. And they will leave your privacy alone. I have a very good s note in particular just in case.

I probably will leave a note then. Its just a lot about this has been on my mind and i hadn't been sure how i wanted to go about it. ive never been the best at expressing myself to my family. id always just kinda like been afar from them. i love them but idk. it's been strained and i wouldn't know how to say goodbye.

 

[reapandsow918]

I'm sorry you are in this position. When I CTB I will be putting my phone on a number lock on it so they can't use my finger print to access my phone. Maybe you can do this with yours? Just an idea.

 

[Indieblue]

I'm sorry you are in this position. When I CTB I will be putting my phone on a number lock on it so they can't use my finger print to access my phone. Maybe you can do this with yours? Just an idea.

Wouldn't wipe it with a tissue work? :)