Concerns

[Itsbeenalongtime]

So my SN arrived, I'm actually away from home for a bit and and my mum let me know I had the package during a phone call (she has no idea whats in it, she just said I had a package from X country and i knew what it was). I know she wont open it as I always have a lot of packages arriving with small weird things in and she just leaves them in my room when I'm not home. I want to ctb in April, life is getting unbearable for me but I have some unfinished business to attend to first. My issue is I dont know how to get hold of meto. I'm half tempted to buy N from D just do i can get the bloody meto that comes with it, I cannot afford to fail again it will just be life ruining. I dont really know what to do, i am tempted to get some backup Sn from a different supplier too. I just need to go and with the method in my hands i think it will probably get too much for me at some point and Ill use it without. Im mad that meto is prescription only

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds stressful what you are going through. I'm sorry you are suffering so much. I know that it can be hard to carry on when this life is unbearable. I wish you the best in whatever happens.