I had an interesting talk with chatGPT recently. I am still obsessed by the STEM professor I once met (5 years ago). He was by far the smartest person I ever talked with. He was specialized in quantum physics and wrote scientifical books about it. He did not consider me particularly smart. He was rather annoyed by my pathology of doing predictions all the time. I never realized that. But when I am in a conversation I try to anticipate the answer of the people I talk with. I think many consider that self-aware and would consider that high emotional intelligence. As I said most people are rather impressed by my self-awareness. But the STEM professor has a point that such a thinking can be pretty deceiving and prone to bias. I think such a thinking is pretty much influenced by inter-subjectivity. (The own emotions determine one's thought). Moreover, I think Daniel Kahnemann would advice againist such a thinking. It is fast thinking and we need more slow thinking. Fast thinking is prone to more biases. It makes people judgemental too.
I am not sure why exactly my omnipresent predictions made this STEM professor so mad. (maybe they are pretentious)
I think my predictions could be caused by traumata. My brain as a child tried to anticipate dangers. I asked chatGPT why I can't I let go of this man. My theory is a part of it is a delusion and a part of it is my special interest of autism (high IQ). Moreover, I had the feeling I could learn from him. I can understand me better than before and gain more self-awareness. The problem is he thought mostly negative about me. Or at least my presumptous anaylsis of his mind brought me to this conclusion. So smart and reflective people probably don't judge this much anyway. I had the feeling he understands my pathologies way better than any other therapist. And he challenged my paranoia. I was convinced like 100% that I gonna kill myself eventually. He called that out. He tried to help me but I think his low emotional intelligence was probably counterproductive in this instance. Of course I cannot tell another patient that a therapist lost hope in me and considered me a hopeless patient. In the end though he was right. Future is in many instances uncertain.
And I think my thinking and my pathology to anaylze others can be pretty deceptice. It fuels my anxiety for sure. Because my strongest most intrusive thoughts are influenced by my most intense fears. My mind sometimes thinks I could read others. For example by facial expressions. Such a thinking is rather counterproductive. I am not sure why exactly I think that way. I could imagine with autism I tried to understand the emotions of others. And I have a really rational approach to understanding others. The pathologies I have a certainly very strong. Many of them could be caused by psychosis.
I am not sure why exactly my omnipresent predictions made this STEM professor so mad. (maybe they are pretentious)
I think my predictions could be caused by traumata. My brain as a child tried to anticipate dangers. I asked chatGPT why I can't I let go of this man. My theory is a part of it is a delusion and a part of it is my special interest of autism (high IQ). Moreover, I had the feeling I could learn from him. I can understand me better than before and gain more self-awareness. The problem is he thought mostly negative about me. Or at least my presumptous anaylsis of his mind brought me to this conclusion. So smart and reflective people probably don't judge this much anyway. I had the feeling he understands my pathologies way better than any other therapist. And he challenged my paranoia. I was convinced like 100% that I gonna kill myself eventually. He called that out. He tried to help me but I think his low emotional intelligence was probably counterproductive in this instance. Of course I cannot tell another patient that a therapist lost hope in me and considered me a hopeless patient. In the end though he was right. Future is in many instances uncertain.
And I think my thinking and my pathology to anaylze others can be pretty deceptice. It fuels my anxiety for sure. Because my strongest most intrusive thoughts are influenced by my most intense fears. My mind sometimes thinks I could read others. For example by facial expressions. Such a thinking is rather counterproductive. I am not sure why exactly I think that way. I could imagine with autism I tried to understand the emotions of others. And I have a really rational approach to understanding others. The pathologies I have a certainly very strong. Many of them could be caused by psychosis.
