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SoldierOfTheRanks
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- Mar 18, 2024
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Hey y'all - I've been thinking for quite some time now.
So I came back here to hear feedbacks about it, to see whether it might be worth pursuing Suicide or not.
Eventually, I reached a point where I developed a Suicidal ideology that could speak for all walks of life. Especially my own.
It feels as though I solved life somehow? (Or at least my own...)
It's fascinating to see how our human bodies tend to heavily rely on socialization for physical and psychological well-being, which I haven't been getting much at all lol. This must be why I had to come up with such dangerous ideas - to find better means of living.
But I decided to look past that during my time in isolation, because I couldn't get some anyways.
This is a little more specific rather than "I wanna kms because living is pointless" so give it a thorough read. :)
Let me start... (philosophy 101 warning)
Know how even the smallest living things pursue evolution in some form? The same applies to us humans, we're still half-baked because we haven't reached that state of maximum happiness yet. It doesn't matter what someone argues because they will always live in a state of incompleteness. But it's so easy to preach that you should desensitize yourself to your own vulnerabilities as a mortal human to make your life more bearable than to pursue a state of maximum happiness which all people aren't likely able to do, because it eventually means you'd have to become God to free yourself from potential vulnerability. Because that's impossible, what would the next option be? Suicide! Pray that you get put in another body that doesn't have the same suffering as humans because they have no concept of God. You can try becoming a God to be free from the cycle of suffering and life, but no one here knows what the process would be like, so good luck.
This may sound perfectionistic but perfection is really the only way to solve every problem. You don't have to take "God" literally, because everything has a different perception of that infinite entity. Use it as a guideline to tell whether you are doing right by trying to become like it as much as possible, because power will be the one to relieve suffering.
It's also so fascinating how this world doesn't give anti-suicide ideas a decisive answer to give to people like us. Perhaps salvation lies in the other side? :)
If you have made it this far into the post, thank you. This is a very simplified post that's based off a short, original paper of mine. But I hope I got all the relevant points across.
TL;DR: "I should kms because there's nothing good in this life"
So I came back here to hear feedbacks about it, to see whether it might be worth pursuing Suicide or not.
Eventually, I reached a point where I developed a Suicidal ideology that could speak for all walks of life. Especially my own.
It feels as though I solved life somehow? (Or at least my own...)
It's fascinating to see how our human bodies tend to heavily rely on socialization for physical and psychological well-being, which I haven't been getting much at all lol. This must be why I had to come up with such dangerous ideas - to find better means of living.
But I decided to look past that during my time in isolation, because I couldn't get some anyways.
This is a little more specific rather than "I wanna kms because living is pointless" so give it a thorough read. :)
Let me start... (philosophy 101 warning)
- I noticed how every living thing does something that benefits them in whatever way, and these happen because of instincts. Things having sex, and doing the necessary stuff (like building relationships, etc...) that comes before sex seem to benefit humanity by genetic mutations through reproduction, which is like the fundamental and most basic way of progression.
- When something progresses, it becomes a 'better' version than the previous version. It's better in that sense because it can do what the previous version can't, but wanted to.
- But why should I commit suicide when I can stick around and try to become a better version of myself? That's because I can't become a better version of myself that I want to be. I can do pointless things that lead to little to no progression of what I want, which is to get out of this state where everything that I will ever try to do, leads to nothing that I want.
- What do I even want? Peace. But I can't have that in this life. I already thought of what my 'next responsibility' in life would be, and I have no means of accomplishing it in this life, because of this shitty state and lacking intelligence or the means to do what is morally right. I can't have this peace because I'm not built for it.
- What even is my 'next responsiblity'? To pursue a state of maximum happiness! As insane as it sounds, I think there is moral and logical merit to it. Because when I reach that state, my poor soul will no longer have any way to experience a terrible life again. No one needs to experience hardship just for the sake of it. Hardship is the path to goodness which I find to be maximum happiness in my case.
- When I commit Suicide, is the aftermath any good? I think commiting Suicide would give you back the chance of getting put back into this world again, or not at all which would be absolutely perfect because there's no more suffering. But since being put back in a new body of something may be possible as well, let's consider it. I would either wake up in a worse or better position, but let's hope I get the better life, if not, then it's fine if I end up in Satan's purgatory since I already have no use for this compromised life.
Know how even the smallest living things pursue evolution in some form? The same applies to us humans, we're still half-baked because we haven't reached that state of maximum happiness yet. It doesn't matter what someone argues because they will always live in a state of incompleteness. But it's so easy to preach that you should desensitize yourself to your own vulnerabilities as a mortal human to make your life more bearable than to pursue a state of maximum happiness which all people aren't likely able to do, because it eventually means you'd have to become God to free yourself from potential vulnerability. Because that's impossible, what would the next option be? Suicide! Pray that you get put in another body that doesn't have the same suffering as humans because they have no concept of God. You can try becoming a God to be free from the cycle of suffering and life, but no one here knows what the process would be like, so good luck.
This may sound perfectionistic but perfection is really the only way to solve every problem. You don't have to take "God" literally, because everything has a different perception of that infinite entity. Use it as a guideline to tell whether you are doing right by trying to become like it as much as possible, because power will be the one to relieve suffering.
It's also so fascinating how this world doesn't give anti-suicide ideas a decisive answer to give to people like us. Perhaps salvation lies in the other side? :)
If you have made it this far into the post, thank you. This is a very simplified post that's based off a short, original paper of mine. But I hope I got all the relevant points across.
TL;DR: "I should kms because there's nothing good in this life"