Help Company? Mid January 2022 CTB

[wanttogetonthebus]

Would anyone be willing to stay with me over voice chat as I drink N? I would like someone to talk to who is understanding to reduce my fear and apprehension. I think dying is scary for just about any one (SI) and it takes courage for most to endure the fear and uncertainty before peace comes. I would really like to not be alone with only my thoughts to keep me company. I've been alone for essentially my whole life. I'd really like to not be entirely alone in the end even if the people I know in my real life can not support me with CTB (for obvious reasons). We would need to use encrypted anonymous voice chat so that you can not be identified or prosecuted in any way. I'll be ordering N as soon as possible so if anyone else has experience with this process from D, I would greatly appreciate your personal mentoring and guidance. I've never used bitcoin before.

The plan so far: My parents are going away for a private vacation sometime in mid-January for a few days. I want to get this over with. Yes, I'm scared to die but living is pure torture. We're all going to die eventually. I know this is the right thing to do. The sooner this is over and the less I have to agonize over this decision the better. I've agonized enough. I've suffered enough. Release me from this vulnerable fleshy prison already. Life is unfair and life is cruel we already know that (it really is sad though) blah blah blah. 24 years is enough. I haven't acquired N yet but I will be messaging D in the next few days to acquire it. If I can obtain it in time, I'll drink it while my parents are away. Cause of death: painful 24/7 long COVID neurological complications

 

[Soulseer]

I cannot be there as prescribed, but I have read your words, and I share your pain. You are not alone. Whatever you choose, know that you did not go without your thoughts being seen. We all deserve to be seen in this universe. You, (and I) exist or have existed until tomorrow. I wont forget you.

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

I cannot be there as prescribed, but I have read your words, and I share your pain. You are not alone. Whatever you choose, know that you did not go without your thoughts being seen. We all deserve to be seen in this universe. You, (and I) exist or have existed until tomorrow. I wont forget you.

Thanks so much. Neither will I forget you. You are not alone either and I am happy to listen to you. Wishing you peace and happiness wherever you may go. Merry Christmas!