Committing to SN method

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As soon as I press this purchase button I am wholely committed. Ordering from an international website to the US. I'm worried there's going to be some stupid wellness check like I hear horrors of online. I'm not sure how to prepare for that. I don't have a gun in the house, maybe I'll keep a large kitchen knife at my side in case someone comes knocking and I need an emergency exit, stab to the carotid on the side of my neck, before they give up waiting and bust their way in. This is the least planned out part of the journey, so if there's any divine wisdom that can be imparted I am open to hearing it.
I can't sleep anymore, worried about everything that's currently going on. I have an earlier post where I talked about it to great length.
I'm scared. Mostly that it doesn't work, or that I have to revert to some, for lack of better term, "barbaric" method of gutting myself because I'm not allowed to make this decision on my own/face resistance. Because I was there for weeks now, sitting with the same knife I would hold to my neck thinking how I could just do it, right now, and be over with, but it seems so gruesome. I don't want that for my family either, to find me with a gaping hole and blood everywhere. I like the idea of the SN method. Play some relaxing music from my speaker, let myself recount all the better times I had in life, until consciousness fades and I find myself wherever we end up next. The pain, the hardship, the struggle I've dealt with over and over again finally lifted. It puts me at ease knowing I can accomplish it that way.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so horrible what has happened to people who have ordered SN, I really despise this world where people cannot just reliably escape from all the suffering in peace as after all for many the only relief lies in death. But anyway best wishes.

 

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I find it so horrible what has happened to people who have ordered SN, I really despise this world where people cannot just reliably escape from all the suffering in peace as after all for many the only relief lies in death. But anyway best wishes.

And you're talking about a compound that here in the US is 100% unrestricted. The only freedom we have in this "free" country is what big daddy government allows us to have. The whole suicide prevention system here is ridiculous too. They take anything of enjoyment from you and lock you in a place that basically accounts to serving time in a county jail. Even if I was not ready to make this decision, after experiencing something like that, I absolutely would be. Also thank you for the good wishes. I commented on a post of yours earlier, I extend the same feelings to you.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

try not to get too worked up. if worst comes to, then just try to remain calm and talk your way out of it. besides they can't hold you for that long. i had a neck injury once. was bleeding pretty good and thought i was done for. unlike blood from lesser injuries, i felt these almost gelatinous things that clogged my wound rather quickly. also heard ctb from knives has a very low success rate.

 

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I actually once considered severing my cartoid artery as a method but realized just how tricky and difficult it is to get right and the very low success rate so hopefully SN makes it to you and big daddy government in the US doesn't get in the way.

This is why I find SN to be better than any other available method the average individual has access to. I'd rather my family find me dead in bed rather than hanging off a beam or with a gaping hole in my neck.

 

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I actually once considered severing my cartoid artery as a method but realized just how tricky and difficult it is to get right and the very low success rate so hopefully SN makes it to you and big daddy government in the US doesn't get in the way.

This is why I find SN to be better than any other available method the average individual has access to. I'd rather my family find me dead in bed rather than hanging off a beam or with a gaping hole in my neck.

I was thinking stab in its location and flick the wrist, cutting open the windpipe as much as possible for good measure. I have a lot of really big butcher/carving/bread knives that should be able to make a large enough area to bleed out/suffocate rather quickly.
Also, when I was replying to the other comment I was literally thinking this same exact thing. If something happens when the SN arrives I'm going to have to probably do something far more gruesome, or possibly cause conflict if they try to take me away, which is very much the last thing I want but I'm not going to no US padded room prison for my life to be even more miserable.

try not to get too worked up. if worst comes to, then just try to remain calm and talk your way out of it. besides they can't hold you for that long. i had a neck injury once. was bleeding pretty good and thought i was done for. unlike blood from lesser injuries, i felt these almost gelatinous things that clogged my wound rather quickly. also heard ctb from knives has a very low success rate.

There isn't any legislation that even prohibits anyone from buying it here, so I'm not sure what they would even do when they arrive. I like to think I can just tell them no you can't come in the house, I've bought something I'm legally allowed to buy, and close the door. I've never had one of these wellness checks happen or anything. I'm sure there are stories on the site from people who have but I have been unsuccessful in tracking any of them down.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

the country i'm in at the moment is worse. i once sent my aunt glucosimine pills and it took them a while to clear that at customs. they had to show up in person lol

 

[ToTheTwillight]

You ever try to cut yourself with a knife? I personally can't do it but everyone is different. I mean good intentions here, but from what I read, you seem confident that you would just be able to cut yourself to death successfully without hesitation if they come after you. It's very possible that as you do it, you will find yourself half way there stopping out of excruciating pain. I root for you to succeed escaping if that's what you wish, just saying consider the possibility that the knife cutting plan could backfire, and you will be brought to emergency room, you recover before you are locked in a psych ward. It's a plausible scenario you should prepare for.

I got my SN personally, but even then I have to prepare for things to backfire if it's not successful. You just gotta prepare in case you fail

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

' I like to think I can just tell them no you can't come in the house'

you have every right unless a judge issued a warrant. stay calm at all times. i believe in you to get out of this. rant whatever you need to do. people are listening!

 

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You ever try to cut yourself with a knife? I personally can't do it but everyone is different. I mean good intentions here, but from what I read, you seem confident that you would just be able to cut yourself to death successfully without hesitation if they come after you. It's very possible that as you do it, you will find yourself half way there stopping out of excruciating pain. I root for you to succeed escaping if that's what you wish, just saying consider the possibility that the knife cutting plan could backfire, and you will be brought to emergency room, you recover before you are locked in a psych ward. It's a plausible scenario you should prepare for.

I got my SN personally, but even then I have to prepare for things to backfire if it's not successful. You just gotta prepare in case you fail

I used to self harm really badly in high school, I have permanent scarring on my thighs from it. I want to believe in a high stress situation where it's now or never I would be able to, but you've definitely given me something to think about because I really don't know beyond face value. I would definitely need to put a lot of calculation into how exactly I did it to to maximize effectiveness.
And thank you.

 

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' I like to think I can just tell them no you can't come in the house'

you have every right unless a judge issued a warrant. stay calm at all times. i believe in you to get out of this. rant whatever you need to do. people are listening!

I really appreciate it. This site has been a wonder tool for being able to talk without fear of persecution and I am so grateful to have found it.

 

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I was thinking stab in its location and flick the wrist, cutting open the windpipe as much as possible for good measure. I have a lot of really big butcher/carving/bread knives that should be able to make a large enough area to bleed out/suffocate rather quickly.
Also, when I was replying to the other comment I was literally thinking this same exact thing. If something happens when the SN arrives I'm going to have to probably do something far more gruesome, or possibly cause conflict if they try to take me away, which is very much the last thing I want but I'm not going to no US padded room prison for my life to be even more miserable.

There isn't any legislation that even prohibits anyone from buying it here, so I'm not sure what they would even do when they arrive. I like to think I can just tell them no you can't come in the house, I've bought something I'm legally allowed to buy, and close the door. I've never had one of these wellness checks happen or anything. I'm sure there are stories on the site from people who have but I have been unsuccessful in tracking any of them down.

Geez man, I truly hope for your sake that SN gets to you because I'd absolutely hate to see someone resort to something gruesome and with a higher chance of failure. I mean yes, SN isn't illegal to buy or own at all but they are trying to make this way fo counter people using it to ctb even though in reality, SN is such a small method statistically when it comes to the amount of people who use it compared to guns or even pesticides.

 

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Geez man, I truly hope for your sake that SN gets to you because I'd absolutely hate to see someone resort to something gruesome and with a higher chance of failure. I mean yes, SN isn't illegal to buy or own at all but they are trying to make this way fo counter people using it to ctb even though in reality, SN is such a small method statistically when it comes to the amount of people who use it compared to guns or even pesticides.

This is the complete statistics for sodium nitrite deaths "up to" November 2022, I found this in a peer review article that referenced this image from NCBI. So it is definitely an EXTREMELY small number considering this is every single recorded case up to the end of last year.
Thank you, I do too. My only other option would be to go out to like Cabela's and just buy a smaller rifle or shotgun cause you can get them like Tylenol here in the US, but then I hit the conundrum of not wanting a closed casket funeral as well.

 

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This is the complete statistics for sodium nitrite deaths "up to" November 2022, I found this in a peer review article that referenced this image from NCBI. So it is definitely an EXTREMELY small number considering this is every single recorded case up to the end of last year.
Thank you, I do too. My only other option would be to go out to like Cabela's and just buy a smaller rifle or shotgun cause you can get them like Tylenol here in the US, but then I hit the conundrum of not wanting a closed casket funeral as well.

No it truly is an extremely small number compared to other methods yet they are pushing so hard to make it difficult to access for the average individual.