NekoNomNom
There is no right to heal the wrong
- May 3, 2020
- 248
I've been away, on and off for a little while now. Things got a little more busy on the outside. While they didn't necessarily distract me from the pain, it still gave me something to do; and dare I say, some things to look forward to.
However, I realize that I've now come full circle, back to that low. I am feeling as emotionally crippled as I did when all of this avalanched. Only, I'm not nearly as bedridden as I was.
All I want to do is cry, yet I don't want anyone to see it. So it's a real bitch having to be out and about as much as I am now. There are moments at work that I have to myself where I just let it all out, but I can't be too loud. My boss said to me in passing, "It's good to have you 'back.'" Oh dude, if only you knew. You may have to fill my position soon.
Anyway. It feels comfortable to be back on here again. Not sure how I'm feeling about the new layout, but at least we still have this place.
However, I realize that I've now come full circle, back to that low. I am feeling as emotionally crippled as I did when all of this avalanched. Only, I'm not nearly as bedridden as I was.
All I want to do is cry, yet I don't want anyone to see it. So it's a real bitch having to be out and about as much as I am now. There are moments at work that I have to myself where I just let it all out, but I can't be too loud. My boss said to me in passing, "It's good to have you 'back.'" Oh dude, if only you knew. You may have to fill my position soon.
Anyway. It feels comfortable to be back on here again. Not sure how I'm feeling about the new layout, but at least we still have this place.