
TheDyingSolarSystem
Member
- Jul 11, 2023
- 15
So I don't really know where to go with this other than here, so imma get it off my chest.
I have a CNC Kink, but without the Consent. It's not me wanting to inflict SA upon others, it's more of me wanting to be the one getting SA'D. I'm pretty sure with my past SA experiences, it's groomed me into thoroughly enjoying getting Raped, but still. Regardless, I've had the kink- or fetish? since forever and it never ceases to leave my mind. When I work I wonder if the customers coming and going would forcefully take me, I fantasize and Wish as I walk down alleyways back to my house that someone- ANYONE would just Rape me right there. it's a problem for sure, but literally NO ONE but me knows this. I want to get hurt in the process, used to their own pleasure and discarded whenever. I want to bleed, cry, ache. sorry.
I've been struggling w this for a long while, and I constantly try to find ways where it can happen, but all that I can find is Grindr- Which i'm too scared to use cause I'm Trans (ftm, Passing? I guess? half n' Half) and pretty sure not wanted there; Or Tinder, but I think that place is more regulated. I also think my Hyper sexuality amps up my fantasies and needs that are definitely not being met lmao.
Anyways, are there other people out there who feel the same way? Sorry- this is mostly a rant, but I'd like any feedback, criticism, yk.
I have a CNC Kink, but without the Consent. It's not me wanting to inflict SA upon others, it's more of me wanting to be the one getting SA'D. I'm pretty sure with my past SA experiences, it's groomed me into thoroughly enjoying getting Raped, but still. Regardless, I've had the kink- or fetish? since forever and it never ceases to leave my mind. When I work I wonder if the customers coming and going would forcefully take me, I fantasize and Wish as I walk down alleyways back to my house that someone- ANYONE would just Rape me right there. it's a problem for sure, but literally NO ONE but me knows this. I want to get hurt in the process, used to their own pleasure and discarded whenever. I want to bleed, cry, ache. sorry.
I've been struggling w this for a long while, and I constantly try to find ways where it can happen, but all that I can find is Grindr- Which i'm too scared to use cause I'm Trans (ftm, Passing? I guess? half n' Half) and pretty sure not wanted there; Or Tinder, but I think that place is more regulated. I also think my Hyper sexuality amps up my fantasies and needs that are definitely not being met lmao.
Anyways, are there other people out there who feel the same way? Sorry- this is mostly a rant, but I'd like any feedback, criticism, yk.