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Funeralprincess
Death never turned on me
- May 8, 2022
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I have too many health issues at 25, most of which cannot be gotten rid of, but my chest issues caused me to need surgery and of course, I got a doctor who did the surgery to HIS liking instead of MINE, and that's left me with even more issues with my back (you can probably guess what kind of surgery I'm talking about) and now I have worse back issues and the ONLY thing that helps are painkillers and muscle relaxers. My adoptive mom had to sneak me some because she feels horrible with how bad the pain is, and doctors will treat chronic pain people like addicts and make us suffer. I tried the whole "Tylenol" route which didn't fix it. While I'm still alive I'm tempted to just buy muscle relaxers off the dark web I think, because they relax those muscles and put me to sleep so I don't have to endure that fucking pain. I feel so sorry for chronic pain patients and now that I'm in that category, I see how horrible you all are treated. They will make you feel like scum of the earth for wanting pain medicine all because others chose to be selfish and abuse the pills, the rest of us are treated like heathens and addicts. Chronic pain patients are so degraded it's not even funny… I don't know how some have lived their whole life like this, whereas me I haven't… a doctor himself put me in this position and now other doctors essentially tell me I'll have to suffer and that Tylenol does cure severe chronic pain and nerve damage… what kind of fucking system is this? I also looked into suicide rates of people with chronic pain and it makes so much sense… even though I want to die, I cry for the people who had to do it because they just couldn't live with chronic pain, but they loved life. I hate the medical system and I feel people with chronic pain are just washed over and ignored. There isn't enough advocacy in this area of care; you're just painted as an addict and told you need to suck it up and endure what could turn into an even WORSE problem….
I was then told by another doctor who is an "expert in chronic pain" to "run and lift weights" to strengthen my back… the issue is because of medical negligence my spine is VERY messed up and lifting weights and running isn't feasible for me.
I was then told by another doctor who is an "expert in chronic pain" to "run and lift weights" to strengthen my back… the issue is because of medical negligence my spine is VERY messed up and lifting weights and running isn't feasible for me.
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