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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,088
I have too much disabilities. I wonder why I'm still alive. I really didn't deserve all this pain. I don't even like sleeping anymore because since a few days, I have nightmares and it's awful when nights and days are torture. Every night I want to drink this SN shit, but I realize that I didn't fast, so I cannot take it just like that. Damn, please just give me N. I could pay a lot for a little bottle...
 
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Topaz111

Topaz111

I can feel this body in revolt
Mar 9, 2026
75
Your own body turning against you may just be the most cruel thing a human can experience, especially when despite such great suffering we still retain the survival instinct and have to overcome it if we wish to leave this existance. You deserve so much better, I'm so sorry
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,088
Your own body turning against you may just be the most cruel thing a human can experience, especially when despite such great suffering we still retain the survival instinct and have to overcome it if we wish to leave this existance. You deserve so much better, I'm so sorry
Thanks for your kind words šŸ™ All I want is to escape from my body because there is no miracle drug or treatment for me.
 
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fyer

fyer

Member
Oct 27, 2025
34
Hey, do you want to talk? i am in very similar situation and i am very close to drinking this f*cking sn
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
863
I have too much disabilities. I wonder why I'm still alive. I really didn't deserve all this pain. I don't even like sleeping anymore because since a few days, I have nightmares and it's awful when nights and days are torture. Every night I want to drink this SN shit, but I realize that I didn't fast, so I cannot take it just like that. Damn, please just give me N. I could pay a lot for a little bottle...
I hear you, and I can feel the weight of every word you wrote. As someone else who lives in a body that feels like a constant battleground, I know that "bone-deep" exhaustion where even the concept of "staying strong" feels like a cruel joke.

It is incredibly unfair. You're right, you didn't deserve this. There is no logic or "reason" why some of us have to carry a mountain while others don't even have to carry a pebble. When the days are a physical struggle and the nights turn into a mental one with those nightmares, it feels like your last sanctuary has been taken away
Your own body turning against you may just be the most cruel thing a human can experience, especially when despite such great suffering we still retain the survival instinct and have to overcome it if we wish to leave this existance. You deserve so much better, I'm so sorry
You are 100% right. It really is the ultimate betrayal when your own body feels like an enemy you can't escape.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,306
I wish I could escape this hell called life they call a beautiful gift. I wish today I could die so I would be free forever to the safety of eternal Non-existence

I wish I were never born
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

TheBiggestNarcissist
Mar 15, 2025
653
I wish I could escape this hell called life they call a beautiful gift. I wish today I could die so I would be free forever to the safety of eternal Non-existence

I wish I were never born
What's stopping you? If you don't mind me asking. We've come across each other a lot on this forum and I think you have a lot of knowledge and have done in depth research on suicide methods exactly like me. Is it si? Or is it fear?
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
863
I wish I could escape this hell called life they call a beautiful gift. I wish today I could die so I would be free forever to the safety of eternal Non-existence

I wish I were never born
As a fellow chronic pain sufferer I know exactly how you feel. I wish there was something that I could do to ease your pain.
 
wannabeangel

wannabeangel

ź’°įƒ Missing Wings ą»’ź’±
Mar 14, 2026
51
struggling with the same, been ranting about it a ton in my vent thread because i ran out of my pain meds that barely cut it anymore, and the pain getting worse in my neck is torturing me for years, im sick of it
 

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