Discussion Chosen vices

[Livingvsdying25]

I used to be what I called a stress alcoholic in the sense that it was my personal choice to over drink and such? If that makes any sense....

Now that I feel like my life is over and ending.... I'm back on my drinking bullshit. Bc it just feels better to be in a different state. & oddly enough? Or just bc? I'm only drinking at night...

And tbh only this week really anyway. It my chosen vice. If I had accesss to benzos that weren't just my prescribed medication I'd def be using them. But alas I only have access to legal substances like alcohol & cannabis. which is better than nothing but is mid tier for me. If im ending my life soon being able to be just fucked up substance wise is how I wanna go out/spend my remaining days...

But alas I have what I have.

What are your chosen vices and why?


(P.S. I started to randomly crave jajangmyeon... but the store that's still open and selling it closes in like 15mins and I'm not sure if ima really eat it... and I don't feel like making one from the like packaged noodles... maybe tmrw I'll try to eat some... I dunno. Eating is so meh. Idgaf about it really beyond cravings especially at this point.)

This post is neither promoting or advertising drug use just talking about it in a place where I hope I won't be shamed and such.

 

[Aisley]

I looooooove opioids. I don't get them often, cuz doctors are cheap pricks, so when I get them, I make them last. But that fuzzy headspace is home to me.

Over 20 yrs ago me and this other kid would go around the allies every month on eviction day (i think the 19th?) looking for the piles by dumpsters that would be peoples' shit, and dig for the bathroom pile, looking for pills. One time we found a shit ton of oxycontins that way and had the best week ever. But mostly we found dilly, which was just gross. To this day my stomach turns at the thought.

I used to drink a lot, too. So much that when I had to quit, I got kinda sick over it. I maybe get drunk twice a year, now.

 

[SVEN]

One of the great things about this group is that no one is going to try to judge or shame anyone for doing whatever it takes just to get through and endure another day.