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Cyndaquil

Cyndaquil

Need Peace
Dec 2, 2023
61
If you were given the chance to change one thing about yourself or your life, what would you choose?

In my case I would choose to stop being a stutterer which has always made my life much more complicated.
 
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hikikomorizombie

hikikomorizombie

Ouch
Jan 15, 2024
771
my appearance. it's really 1 of the main defining things, your looks. it affects every aspect of your life.

or the apathy and general disinterest i've developed towards other people over the years. i kept waiting for that twin flame type of person, platonic/romantic, that'd finally make me realize why people stay alive just for other people. no such luck. now ik that having to settle is another huge part of life, and is what 99% of the population does. but now i no longer yearn for human connection and relationships.
 
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BlackMoon

BlackMoon

Peace-seeker
Oct 30, 2023
183
Right now ? Being with my partner.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
35,556
I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all, all I wish for is to eternally disappear. That would be the most ideal outcome for me next to never existing in the first place which is the only true perfection.
 
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annointed_towers

annointed_towers

Cursed by God
Dec 9, 2022
282
I'd go back in time and make different choices
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Visionary
Jan 1, 2024
2,432
To not have a brain injury
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
3,707
I'd change the fact that I was born in the first place and hence I'd wish to get aborted
 
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onbekend

onbekend

Experienced
Jan 14, 2024
262
I would've avoided anyone from taking photos of my face because I don't want to be remembered, but it's too late. Now I've gotta do extra work and manually destroy everything right before I build up the courage to CTB, so that really sucks but I guess it does't really matter all that much.
 
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breezeboy

breezeboy

To infinity and beyond
Dec 8, 2023
404
Losing her. I would do anything to go back. Anything to hold her again.
For so long I was lost and then I found her and it was like I had the sun in my hands.
She was the light. She was love.

And then it was over. Done. My sun extinguished and the light gone.
I was banished back to the darkness after finally feeling the light.

Always you grace ❤️
 
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logi3535

logi3535

even in death, may you be triumphant
Jan 8, 2024
115
I think i'd wanna change my personality, i'm always feeling like i never fit in anywhere. But if i could change anything it'd definitly be to have a connection with my ex again, i miss her terribly so, even though I feel like I am not the one for her, she is definitly the one for me
 
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3ndmym1sery

3ndmym1sery

Member
Aug 26, 2023
33
being able to go outside by myself and having a life of my own away and hidden from my parents
being able to go outside by myself and having a life of my own away and hidden from my parents
 
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uzuf86

Too many mistakes and regrets
Jan 1, 2024
232
Too late for me to change anything about life. It is already screwed completely.
The only thing I would change about my life is to stop it from continuing
 
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Raindancer

Raindancer

Specialist
Nov 4, 2023
317
I'd go back in time and make different choices
Same here, there are some significant decisions I made that changed the trajectory of my life and I would change some of those choices.
 
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SeaBreeze

SeaBreeze

Suicideation?
Jul 11, 2023
146
A job I had for ~5 years working with high amperage DC power, leading to epilepsy and forgetfulness
 
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natthebrat

natthebrat

only help i want is with ctb
Jul 9, 2023
155
To not have autism
 
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sklvlp999

sklvlp999

FML
Jan 23, 2024
85
Too late for me to change anything about life. It is already screwed completely.
The only thing I would change about my life is to stop it from continuing
Same here.
Plus it doesn't help to think about what you could change if there is no reasonable way to do it.
 
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benetar_apologist

Member
Jan 22, 2024
9
I wrote my first CTB note at 12...at 26 now, knowing what I know now, I should have just done it then. I've kinda just been waiting to die for more than half of my life, I doubt things will ever change at this point. There have been some (not many) genuinely happy moments in my life, but they just don't compensate for the emotional exhaustion of living, not to mention the deep hatred I've come to hold towards humanity in general...
 
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piryohae3

Member
Jan 2, 2024
69
I thought about this a lot and came to the conclusion that I'd always end up unhappy. This is world is shit and so are people. The isolation, lack of empathy, how divided people are, idiotic socioeconomic norms, environmental destruction would always be there no matter what I changed.
 
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FujoshiNeet

FujoshiNeet

people call me unhinged
Jan 21, 2024
90
Not to touch alcohol.
 
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leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
I wish I wasn't constantly fatigued
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,356
Sure I'll simply give myself the ability to grant all of my own wishes no matter how ridiculous or unrealistic.

Then I'd use all that power to either save everyone or make everyone just as miserable as me, depending on my mood.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,335
I think I would take the opportunity to erase my self and all the evidence of my existence
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,188
That this accursed brain stem that is the same as in a frog , fish , rat , crow, etc would die or be obliterated.

The brain stem is what controls breathing and other body functions. If it gets obliterated the animal will die instantly

brains.jpg


Look at the brain stem =medulla oblongata looks exactly the same human and rat.

The individual brain cells are identical in all vertebrates
 
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Wormfood

Wormfood

I like people... I said it
May 23, 2022
131
Losing her. I would do anything to go back. Anything to hold her again.
For so long I was lost and then I found her and it was like I had the sun in my hands.
She was the light. She was love.

And then it was over. Done. My sun extinguished and the light gone.
I was banished back to the darkness after finally feeling the light.

Always you grace ❤️
*insert passenger 's "Let her go"
 
wildbluekiss

wildbluekiss

i don't have a map for where i am now
Jan 22, 2024
73
what would it be, i wonder… well, since i suffer from eating disorder, i'd say… my metabolism. it'd be so much bearable if i were a naturally skinny person lol.
 
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Thanksforeverything

Thanksforeverything

A handshake of carbon monoxide
Jul 24, 2023
237
For everyone to forget my sorry existence so I can go without any guilt bearing me down.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,213
I'd prefer not to have been born. I actually don't regret many of the decisions I made in life. I tried. I gave it my best shot. Too many shitty things happened along the way. I couldn't see myself ever living all that happily in this world. I'd prefer not to risk trying again with some little aspect of it tweaked.
 
whats_the_point

whats_the_point

Member
Feb 18, 2024
32
The one thing I wish I could change is the death of my sibling. If they hadn't died, I'm sure life for my parents and I would be so much better. I'm not blaming my sibling, it wasn't their choice to die.
 
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Let Me Go

Member
Jan 12, 2024
12
I wish I could change the average lifespan so that life was shorter. If I was a butterfly it would be just 3 weeks.
 
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