I'll say up front that I recognize I'm not giving you an opportunity to save face here in the comment that follows. I'm direct, honest and no bullshit, and I don't do face-saving, especially when it seems like someone is heading for an honorable mention for a Darwin Award. I don't pussy foot about this kind of stuff. I'm speaking to you with equality and respect and a little toughness, like an alpha man talking to an alpha man, totally upfront, not playing, saying don't be a dumbass and seriously fuck yourself up.*
I don't see how you've researched a fair amount and are considering drinking it. I used duckduckgo on TOR and learned a lot, there is quite a lot of online information. The method was popular in the late 1800s to early 1900s. There are contemporary medical publications about chloroform suicides. Instructions aren't given, but there's enough information out there to know what the hazards are and to be able to figure out how to do it.
It seems to me like you're flying by the seat of your pants and the repercussions are way too great for that. I get that there's not info like there is for SN, there's no regimen with specific instructions. But there is definitely information out there to get informed and then ask educated questions. I could understand you researching and then asking specific questions to help you with testing it out and planning, but you seem to be at square one, and you could take some ridiculous advice and get really fucked up. Like that thread with the laundry basket -- if you read old and new accounts online of successful suicides, there's no need for that kind of overkill, and it probably won't be blissful like what was claimed. If you read accounts, or even warnings about handling the chemical, you'll know about burns. If you read about the effects, you'll know what physical repercussions there are if you fail, and you'll know the mechanisms of how it kills. Read how it was discovered, read about the dentist who tried to introduce it into dentistry -- these accounts will give you clues about how to test it, but also make you aware that it's risky to do so. Bottom line: get informed, this is serious. If you don't get what I'm saying and you're not going to take it to that level, that's cool, you don't have to, and I'll wish you good luck and step out of further discussions. It's your right to be uninformed and do whatever you choose to do, I won't judge, and I also won't keep participating and drive myself nuts over something I can't control.
I sincerely wish you the best. I hope you can see that. I don't think you're dumb. But I do think you're heading toward making some really ignorant moves and that's so unnecessary.
*Yes, I'm a woman, but I'm also alpha and I can hold my own with any man. Maybe you're female, I don't know, but even if you are, this is a man-up situation.
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