magiciantripwire

magiciantripwire

Member
Jun 24, 2022
5
I laid on the solid concrete ground which I knew was a decision I would later regret as it was scorching hot from the rays of the sun.

Responsibilities and work were now my priority now. I sat up and moved into the shade because the heat of the sun was unbearable for me. I closed my eyes and reminisced about the past, more specifically the life I lived as a child. The life I couldn't get back but didn't regret how I lived in my past. I was a child and didn't have a care about the future nor did I care.

Now I'm grown and wonder if it was all worth it.

Why don't you read on and find out?

Being a child is a fantastic thing and a bad thing.

No worries.
No responsibilities.

The absolute pinnacle of a child's life.

The world for a child is like living in a video game. Only this game is called, "life" and has no one to kill and no levels. A playground with infinite possibilities. There are rules put in place. but your curiosity as a kid wants to see what happens if you break the rules.

Curiosity as a child will always get the better of you. Cherish and nurture your childhood because before you know it you'll be 40 years old with no achievements and your memories will be a distant thought.

The only bad thing about being a child is that a majority of people won't take you seriously and they will treat you like, well a child. Fear not of what other people's opinions of you are. They aren't you. Are they?

When I was younger, mischief was all I ever got up to.

It could have been my middle name. Which child hasn't been a little bit mischievous? Whether it be I got detentions for pulling the fire alarm, which resulted in the whole school being evacuated or just being downright stupid by throwing glue sticks at the ceiling and seeing how long they would stay on the ceiling before falling down.

Were my parent's impressed with my actions?

No, my mother and father were always ashamed of my behaviour and the plethora of meetings they had to attend. Did this make me stop and correct my ways?

No.

It went in one ear and out of the other. I was a child. I thought I knew it all and has this thing called life all figured all out. Now as a grown man I understand that my parents were right and I didn't know it all and I still don't have life all figured out. I was a child, and a very ignorant one as well.

Playing out was my utmost priority and any child loves to play outside.

My parents thought this was a great way for me to socialise which I was doing. My idea of socialising was eating ice cream creams and throwing water balloons at people's houses.

Didn't I tell you I was mischievous?

One memory I vividly remember is having a water balloon fight in which I lost.

I was an uncontrolled child. It didn't matter that I lost because I had fun. People must have thought we were getting up to no good, but I and my friends didn't care what others thought of us. We were enjoying the moment we were living. We would play from the early morning sunrise to the late sunset and go straight to bed.

I would wake up the next day and do it all over again.

My motto was to eat, play, sleep, and repeat. This was my definition of fun. This is what I envisioned of the word "fun". Which child would say no to fun? Would your children say no to fun?

My eyes were opened to the sound of children having a water balloon fight.

What a spooky coincidence.

It was like I was watching my past being played out in front of me like a movie and I was the only watcher.

I had a tear reminiscing about my past ways. Children laughing, their parents smiling I'll never get this life back, but I never regretted a thing I did. It made me into the person I am today. I wouldn't change it for the world or even a million pounds.

As a child, you are free to do what you want.

But in the end, time is your enemy and change will occur. You must and have to come to the unfortunate realisation that your childhood is only temporary in the world. You will become a teen, then an adult. After that, your life will become a distant memory and always will stay a memory among millions of other individual memories floating away in the galaxy.

Thinking about my memories makes me want to go back in time, so I can have no worries and no responsibilities.

Sadly, I've run out of time. Two things in life are your enemy, being average and time. You can change being average, but you can't change or turn back time. We all wish we have superhero capabilities, but we are humans, not superheroes, and our capabilities as to what we can do are limited.



Childhood is a key aspect of your life. It is said that modern childhood ends at the age of twelve.

That may sound like a considerable amount of time, but I can tell you by my experience that it isn't.

Explore your city by learning the history of your it became to be. Who built your city? Travel the world with your parent's permission, of course, this will open your eyes to other cultures.

Build an empire.

Set goals and once you have achieved these goals they now become achievements.

Do you want to be that guy who has no achievements and always has an excuse for everything and how his life is going down the drain? I thought not. and most importantly, take action. Taking action will put you ahead of a majority of people.

Trust me, you won't regret it.
 
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waitingforrest

Elementalist
Dec 27, 2021
842
I'd like to take action but I can't beacause of constant physical pain. I'm fine with being that guy that has no achievements, I've fought years and years to no avail.

I tried my best with the deck of cards I had, gave it my all. Experienced the lowest of lows and the highest that brought me to tears. I'm okay with my inevitable fate, I don't need more and more, doing some extrodinary feat, changing the world. I need to let go eventually.
 
brokenbutterflies

brokenbutterflies

Member
Jul 1, 2022
22
I love children, I love seeing the world through their eyes. When you're young you can make fun from nothing, everything is free to explore and the world seems so full of opportunities and excitement. I wish I could go back to being a young child, I was always fascinated by words and read a lot of classic books (my favourite was Moby Dick) and averaged a book a day (I still do!).

Unfortunately, I developed mental illness very young (8) due to a variety of difficulties I experienced around that age, I wish I could go back to before things got difficult for me. To see the world through an 8 year-olds lens. I crave the feeling of looking around me and not seeing darkness, but light and a million possibilities.
 

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