Venting checking blocked accounts

[Life_and_Death]

what the fuck am i hoping for, hes blocked. i blocked him. he doesnt need me. its obvious he isnt going to answer, he cant. so why am i still watching the page like i would any other day. i guess im hoping he notices and says something. he isnt completely blocked everywhere.......

 

[itachi of death]

Sounds like how I was with my ex.your hoping for happiness and the same things everyone else is looking for.Unconditional love,some one to care for you,or gives u attention,idk what your going through but,I hope all goes well and you get whatever it is that you enjoy

 

[Life_and_Death]

Sounds like how I was with my ex.your hoping for happiness and the same things everyone else is looking for.Unconditional love,some one to care for you,or gives u attention,idk what your going through but,I hope all goes well and you get whatever it is that you enjoy

Lol yeah..... Hes my ex. And he does love me uncondinionally (I've tested that time and time again), he does care for me and he gives me all of the attention he can.....i just have too many problems. I hope I can stay away this time. He doesn't need someone like me messing up his life.

 

[Lilacmoon]

I relate a lot to this post :( have hug and love, friend. I'm so sorry you have to go through this kind of pain too.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I relate a lot to this post :( have hug and love, friend. I'm so sorry you have to go through this kind of pain too.

I wouldn't feel too sorry for me. It's self induced. I've blocked him and unblocked him many times. I just can't stay away.

 

[Lilacmoon]

I do similar things all the time. It's still painful and it still hurts. Your feelings are valid.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I do similar things all the time. It's still painful and it still hurts. Your feelings are valid.

I just feel horrible. He's amazing and I'm a broken mess..... And I can't be with him anyway, I'm married. I'm better off leaving him be so he can move on (even though he says he never will)

 

[Lilacmoon]

You can't help how you feel, about others, about yourself. You feel because you do :( That's just such a painful situation.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I just don't know what to do. I want to stay and keep talking. But I feel he's better off without me and sometimes what's best isn't always what we want. However I tried to do what was best in the past and that's how I lost him. I kept cheating (and he knew) but he never did anything. Actually he asked his mom if I could move in so I could get out of my situation, even though he didn't know exactly what my situation was. Anyway I broke up with him because I hated myself for cheating. He didn't even have a chance to ask me if I wanted to move in.

You can ignore my drunk/high ramble if you want...

 

[Lilacmoon]

Feel free to vent as much as you need to, okay? I go through a lot of the same thoughts and guilts that you do, so what you're saying feels like stuff I could be typing myself.

 

[Life_and_Death]

It just sucks. Had I of waited a few more days to break up with him..... I could be in a totally different place right now.... Some things good about that and some things bad.

 

[Lilacmoon]

I hope you're able to find a way to cope and do what's best for your current situation, and that maybe one day, it won't hurt as bad as it does now. Maybe one day you won't have as much pain.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I hope you're able to find a way to cope and do what's best for your current situation, and that maybe one day, it won't hurt as bad as it does now. Maybe one day you won't have as much pain.

You're really sweet thank you