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- Oct 19, 2022
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I recently attended one of those suicide intervention (aka pro-life) courses. It brain washed me (or helped me, however you want to look at it) a lil, and I ended up confiding in a friend about my suicide plans and intentions to buy SN (this was the first time I told an in person support in more than 5 years). I felt like I needed to give people the chance to help since I didn't want it to come as a surprise if I ctb. I was hoping it would relieve her of some guilt. I feel vulnerable and out in the open now. I don't know whether I want to live or die, and I hate that I'm leaning more towards live right now.