Celebrity Heidi Ferrer commited suicide

[noname223]

'Dawson's Creek' Writer Heidi Ferrer Dies by Suicide After COVID Battle

'Dawson's Creek' writer Heidi Ferrer dies by suicide at 50 after a long battle with cancer.

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I did not know her. She had long covid for 13 months. When people commit suicide I compare my battle with their battle. Rationally I know it is impossible. I don't know what she was going through. I don't know the details. But 13 months seem to me a short time to commit suicide for someone who was happy with their life before that happened. I struggle with my suicidality for 9 years. But as I said it is not good to make those comparisons. I can really much relate with her quote "I don't want to live like that anymore."
I would be interested which method she used. I hope she rests in peace.

 

[Water-Lily]

I hope she rests in peace too. I didn't know her but it shows that how we process pain is subjective. How important it is to allow the conversation about suicide without shame or guilt. For some people, some pain/trauma is simply too hard to carry. I am not sure what mindset she is was in but she was very clearly in pain. Hence why, I feel, along with better access to treatment people should have an option for euthanasia. Everyone experiences trauma on some level and for some its simply too much to handle. And that is ok. Though it does hurt that she is no longer here, I hope that with her passing her pain and trauma is alleviated. Rest In Peace.

 

[the_final_countdown]

I understand the pain of what she went through.

I too went a horrific illness that stripped a lot from me. I'm trying to recover but I'm also realistic about my recovery chances being near zero.

"One of the cruelest things Covid did to me was to take away my ability to have dreams. I don't mean dreams in my sleep, I mean I completely stopped dreaming about my future because I couldn't picture it. It was a wall."

I know that feeling. I don't have any plan made for tomorrow. None at all. It's strange. Tomorrow just comes but I have nothing that brings me closer to anything.

I've decided that before December, if I don't improve I'll take my life.

I'm not irrationally depressed, simply taking stock of the quality of my life and what's acceptable to me.

What I don't want is to be living a half life, a pathetic shadow of my former self. That to me is the real sin.

9 years is a long time to be sad friend.

13 months is short, but I imagine if you had your arms and legs cut off, you probably wouldn't want to be around for long either.

Long COVID is brutal. Absolutely brutal.

 

[Beachedwhale]

What I don't want is to be living a half life, a pathetic shadow of my former self. That to me is the real sin.

I really resonate with this

 

[Largeletters]

Very sad, I hope she finds peace on the other side.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think physical health problems can easily turn people who are supposedly happy into suicidal. Many conditions can make life a living hell. From what I've heard long haul covid can be really awful. I hope she is at peace now.

 

[looking sunny]

no name. thanks for posting. she had one of the worlds most beautiful smiles! i'm also curious about her method, but could not find anything on the web?

 

[greyhound]

Long covid symptoms sound pretty bad. I definitely can empathize with feeling suicidal due to health. 13 months isn't that long but maybe her symptoms were severe. The medical system doesn't really have any solutions to many chronic conditions like this.

 

[motel rooms]

We don't know anything about her life, maybe she was in a bad place even before she got sick...

 

[Pharmaruined]

I think physical health problems can easily turn people who are supposedly happy into suicidal. Many conditions can make life a living hell. From what I've heard long haul covid can be really awful. I hope she is at peace now.

Post viral infection, chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, covid long haulers etc etc it's all lyme disease and coinfections.. and U don't need to be bit by a tick to get it.. all these viruses, bacteria, parasites, etc run in packs together

I've studied this extensively. Every problem people have , there's an infection(s) behind it..

granted, if u detox properly it opens up the immune system to fight properly but at the end of the day it's all about the bugs and whether or not our immune system is functioning well..
but they're always there, they're in everybody, just waiting for an opportunity to thrive

 

[aminend]

I've same condition. I'm suffering from covid symptoms for 15 months and this is my main ctb reason. Befor that I was a healthy and happy person

 

[Conflict3d]

Covid long hauler here. It is pure hell. I've been to the ER 9 times and even a psych hospital because I could not bare my symptoms. There seems to be no end in sight either after 7 months

I've same condition. I'm suffering from covid symptoms for 15 months and this is my main ctb reason. Befor that I was a healthy and happy person

Sorry to see others here with long Covid

 

[aminend]

I Wish covid killed me me

 

[Conflict3d]

I Wish covid killed me me

I feel the same. It's not that I don't want to live. I just don't want to live like this. Wish you the best.

 

[primavera1956]

Rest in peace

 

[Disappointered]

I've had numerous covid variants my entire life.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I have had CFS/ME, the equivalent of long covid, for 5 years now.

While 9 months does not sound like a long time to suffer with this, it is absolute hell if you keep accumulating symptoms and being forced to push yourself because there are 0 treatments for this disease.

Those around you will pretend like your suffering is not real, it is exaggerated, it's all in your head, and other rubbish. All while your cognitive abilities decline, your body deteriorates (you won't be able to exercise anymore) and your loved ones abandon you for lacking energy to engage in activities.

It's not difficult to see how 9 months of that will drive you mad. Especially when you realize there is no cure.