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timetodie24
Enlightened
- Apr 14, 2023
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So hadn't planned to still be here but here I am.
Still planning same method but changed date. Haven't confirmed new date yet as depends on a few factors I need to sort and I absolutely need to make sure im ready and not going to chicken out.
One concerning thing I found is that at my chosen location, because of it being a 'suicide hotspot' they've now installed CCTV which apparently alerts emergency services to anyone on cliff edge. Can only find a couple articles from 2018 that said it's being installed and why but no further articles with it being put to use or even pictures of it. I thought maybe it got withdrawn but it's listed on council website as current CCTV locations. Have found articles post-2018 where successful CTB despite passer-by alerting police or where bystanders have pulled people away from edge. So clearly in those cases they weren't spotted on CCTV. Obviously like any place, bystanders calling for help are an issue but will try to do it at quiet time (I can't do it in middle of night due to my living situation) and not go to edge until I'm ready so don't raise suspicion.
I can scope out the area before I do it to see if I can spot the cameras, although won't know if they're on. Not sure if worth the risk To be honest, I'm not convinced that the CCTV is monitored, I don't think the local police have the resources, it might just be a deterrent. It's not even the most 'popular' place for ctb locally. There's definitely other places that attract more jumpers where they haven't installed any so makes no sense (but it's busier there and lower height so can't do that). But even if I'm spotted on CCTV it would take time for police or whoever to arrive so as long as I'm quick it should be okay? However, being quick is what I'm worried about. I'm a right coward and I know I'll hesitate. I don't drink at all these days so hopefully it won't take much alcohol to lower my inhibitons ? I could ask for something to calm me down from my psych but I don't know what to say to lie to get it. They're not one of the psychs who happily dishes meds out to anyone, especially as I have history of ODs.
Why does everyone care about all these initiatives to stop people jumping but not about what happens to people after they're stopped. It's such a short sighted solution to a much longer term problem.
Still planning same method but changed date. Haven't confirmed new date yet as depends on a few factors I need to sort and I absolutely need to make sure im ready and not going to chicken out.
One concerning thing I found is that at my chosen location, because of it being a 'suicide hotspot' they've now installed CCTV which apparently alerts emergency services to anyone on cliff edge. Can only find a couple articles from 2018 that said it's being installed and why but no further articles with it being put to use or even pictures of it. I thought maybe it got withdrawn but it's listed on council website as current CCTV locations. Have found articles post-2018 where successful CTB despite passer-by alerting police or where bystanders have pulled people away from edge. So clearly in those cases they weren't spotted on CCTV. Obviously like any place, bystanders calling for help are an issue but will try to do it at quiet time (I can't do it in middle of night due to my living situation) and not go to edge until I'm ready so don't raise suspicion.
I can scope out the area before I do it to see if I can spot the cameras, although won't know if they're on. Not sure if worth the risk To be honest, I'm not convinced that the CCTV is monitored, I don't think the local police have the resources, it might just be a deterrent. It's not even the most 'popular' place for ctb locally. There's definitely other places that attract more jumpers where they haven't installed any so makes no sense (but it's busier there and lower height so can't do that). But even if I'm spotted on CCTV it would take time for police or whoever to arrive so as long as I'm quick it should be okay? However, being quick is what I'm worried about. I'm a right coward and I know I'll hesitate. I don't drink at all these days so hopefully it won't take much alcohol to lower my inhibitons ? I could ask for something to calm me down from my psych but I don't know what to say to lie to get it. They're not one of the psychs who happily dishes meds out to anyone, especially as I have history of ODs.
Why does everyone care about all these initiatives to stop people jumping but not about what happens to people after they're stopped. It's such a short sighted solution to a much longer term problem.