15dec
ember in the dark
- Dec 7, 2018
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So I've decided to ctb through carotid artery compression, preferably using partial suspension. I tried a few days ago but I couldn't seem to get enough pressure to pass out, so I have a few questions about how to do it properly, as well as a few regarding the date I have chosen and what to do in my last few days.
Is partial or full hanging more reliable for carotid artery compression?
Can I use a bedpost instead of a doorknob as this way I think I could get more downwards pressure, my doorknob is also loose so I don't think it's very stable.
Is a rope with thickness of about 1cm safe enough? I'm not sure how much the body thrashes when the artery is compressed, or if there's any way to reduce thrashing.
Which position is most reliable in partial suspension, and how much alcohol is enough to help suppress survival instincts to maintain the position? When I attempted before I found it incredibly hard not to stand up (from a crouching position) when my vision went blurry and face started to go numb.
Should I eat or drink much before my attempt, as I heard you will lose control of your bowels and I would prefer my body to be find in as nice a state as possible.
Is there any benefit in padding my neck, if so how do I do it enough to reduce bruising/cutting without making it harder to compress the artery?
I also have a few questions about the date I have chosen and how to spend my last few days.
I plan to ctb on the fifteenth of December (hence the username), in the evening. However there are a few problems I have realised: it is the date of my friend's birthday and I don't want to ruin it for her by remembering it as the date I died. I should be home alone for two and a half hours in the evening, however there is a chance this time frame could change or be incorrect as it is entirely dependent on if my dad is going to go out or not, or if he comes home early. I want to ctb as soon as possible and as far as I'm aware the next opportunity I have will be on Monday, however then I worry it's even closer to Christmas and will make the holidays harder. Should I risk it on the fifteenth or wait?
Also, is it worth spending my last week or so trying to act happy and cheerful for everyone around me? I've been empty for the last month or so as my suicidal thoughts have peaked and I don't particularly want to be remembered as being depressed and moping around all day. How would I manage to get some energy to act like everything's fine for the last week, if there's even any point in doing so?
Is partial or full hanging more reliable for carotid artery compression?
Can I use a bedpost instead of a doorknob as this way I think I could get more downwards pressure, my doorknob is also loose so I don't think it's very stable.
Is a rope with thickness of about 1cm safe enough? I'm not sure how much the body thrashes when the artery is compressed, or if there's any way to reduce thrashing.
Which position is most reliable in partial suspension, and how much alcohol is enough to help suppress survival instincts to maintain the position? When I attempted before I found it incredibly hard not to stand up (from a crouching position) when my vision went blurry and face started to go numb.
Should I eat or drink much before my attempt, as I heard you will lose control of your bowels and I would prefer my body to be find in as nice a state as possible.
Is there any benefit in padding my neck, if so how do I do it enough to reduce bruising/cutting without making it harder to compress the artery?
I also have a few questions about the date I have chosen and how to spend my last few days.
I plan to ctb on the fifteenth of December (hence the username), in the evening. However there are a few problems I have realised: it is the date of my friend's birthday and I don't want to ruin it for her by remembering it as the date I died. I should be home alone for two and a half hours in the evening, however there is a chance this time frame could change or be incorrect as it is entirely dependent on if my dad is going to go out or not, or if he comes home early. I want to ctb as soon as possible and as far as I'm aware the next opportunity I have will be on Monday, however then I worry it's even closer to Christmas and will make the holidays harder. Should I risk it on the fifteenth or wait?
Also, is it worth spending my last week or so trying to act happy and cheerful for everyone around me? I've been empty for the last month or so as my suicidal thoughts have peaked and I don't particularly want to be remembered as being depressed and moping around all day. How would I manage to get some energy to act like everything's fine for the last week, if there's even any point in doing so?
