Im going to go way out in the woods and have a text sent to EMS early in the morning that contains GPS coordinates.
The night before I will take a small grill and some lump coal. Light it up and cook some steak and lobster on it. Then I'm going to fill the grill with more coal and let it stop smoking. Put the lid on with the vents of the grill open and put it in the trunk of the SUV.
Probably wait like 30 minutes and just look out at nature before getting in the car and listening to some music. Sit back and pretend I am successful, married, have my own home with all the kids I wanted to have, and no one is looking down on me like I am inferior or less of a person. I'll have friends. We will be having a barbecue, maybe playing some board games. I'll be successful so I'll have the money to do all this. People will genuinely think I'm a nice guy and it will finally be true.
Going to use as much lump coal as I can fit in the grill because faster is better. Depending on the grills size I might get two.